All the problems in our relationship were triggered when she went behind my back to see an ex. I couldn't deal with that and it kicked of the downward spiral that led here. [color:#3366FF] You're kidding right? Remember how you treated her when her dad died? What about how you tortured her b/c she dated men BEFORE she met you? You must not get amnesia now.
If you want to save this marriage or better yet create a new GOOD one, start with you
You are the only person you control. [/color]
When we first got together it was on the back of her sleeping with a random guy just to avoid getting together with me. So unreasonable as it sounds this is the third time she has ripped my heart out for someone else. All I ever wanted was to feel wanted by her.
Yep definitely think throwing up is the way forward.
Get your helmet on b/c here comes a 2 x 4...
Your behavior to your wife, has contained some of the worst I've seen.
READ this whole thread again. It's tough b/c the fear you have is that in fact you pushed her into the arms of the OM. I understand that fear. To be blunt with you, I wondered why she had stayed in the marriage this long.
Face that fear and then you can start to heal and who knows, maybe even change the man you are, into becoming the man you should be and want to be.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
I do see that. There is a chronology but you are right my behaviour has been awful I I gave myself way too much credit for being a good dad and provider.
Ive just written a bunch of stuff and deleted it because actually whatever I think or say the truth is I am a pretty awful person and she deserves better.
Both mid 30s, 2 young kids BD 7sep14 XW moved on long ago, now living with OM1 D paperwork in progress
