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Well, H was just here to pick up the boys to go to lunch. He's all worried about some work we had done around here. My heart aches when he is here. My heart aches a lot.

Well, guess I need to list my own positives since otherwise I may slip into a pity party:
1. H is more himself lately than ever. Gone is the horrible person he turned into over a year ago. Still missing is the lovable H that I know well, though.
2. He is incredibly concerned about the kids. Their morals, driving, drugs, sex, etc.
3. He seems to be concerned about things at the house... 4. He is calling more during the day.
5. He seems to talk about more than just the kids when we talk.

I have been down this road so long I wonder how much of this is just through rose colored glasses. The baby steps are so far between, don't know that I would even call them that.

Goals:
1. Work on my future plans for job, career, etc.
2. Continue act as if everything is just wonderful as it is.
3. Continue to be upbeat and confident. Really TRY to be upbeat and confident. Low PMA has totally plagued me lately.
4. No R talks, no asking about him or what he is doing.
5. Be unavailable, busy, getting on with my life.

Hi Holdingon,
Sorry to let so much time lapse since my last visit.

That is a wonderful list of positives and goals ... and it is not filtered thru rose color glasses that you are seeing those babysteps!

Your H is in the midst of a transformation, albeit a long one ...

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... but just the same, there's nothing wrong in a daydream or two ... that you could just kiss your frog and he would turn back into your prince. Just bear in mind, that only happens in fairytales.

'til later,
KAW

HoldingON....I really like that you posted your positives. Even if they are so teeny-weeny. I like the one about H talking about more than just the kids. I have to pay attention to that one for me. Keep working on your PMA, I know we all cycle on that, but remember what works for you, and continue doing it!

In my prayers.

Mooka

Holdingon,
I have pulled my "Explanation of Reconnection" thread back up over on the MLC Forum. This may help you figure out where your h's mind is in the reconnection arena.

holdingon,

When I read your posts and then came to snoddery's, I also thought your h is showing signs of reconnection! Just take it slow with no expectations, as the reconnection can sometimes be very slow! It is getting there, I know you hate this word; PATIENCE!

I'd say sometimes we get into the NO EXPECTATIONS mode that we fail to see those baby steps, they are there, no doubt in my mind.

Slowlee, Slowlee, Catchee, Monkee!

Hugs
Deb

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Let there be hope. Let there be inspiration. Let there be some really positive progress now. The sky says that all this is possible. There's something you cannot forget but that you can forgive. There's something you cannot resolve but that you can accept. There's something you cannot escape but that you do not have to suffer from. Focus on what's feasible. Embrace that which is worthwhile and likely to stand the test of time. And as for the rest, what does it matter?

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My Cainer forcast... I have been thinking the same... I really need to do more of

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Focus on what's feasible. Embrace that which is worthwhile and likely to stand the test of time. And as for the rest, what does it matter?

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cause otherwise I drive myself NUTS.

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There's something you cannot resolve but that you can accept.

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The accepting of what is is difficult for me... cause it's not what I WANT... but it IS what it IS.

((((((Holdingon)))))) Thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers.

Holdingon...

Wanted to check in and see how your were doing. I really think your goals are on track. Will borrow some of them for me, too.

Catch us up on the latest. Thinking about you.

Mooka