Were we separated at birth or what? I think I could have written that post. Maybe we should look into a software program to morph? Two heads are certainly better than one.... though it will be difficult to divide our time between SA and Denver.
I'm rapidly coming to the conclusion that I can't avoid the rising dough in the closet anymore. It's going to have to be baked... I know it's a question of timing for me. And what if the bread doesn't come out right?
Methinks that you're doing some big soul-searching. I care about you and want you to know that your sista in CO understands.
Hugs,
Bets
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Thanks to the advice of Deb and Water, I told my H I would like to go along to look for a car for our S. I felt like this was something that I should do... I was almost compelled to do it.
H said he wanted to go with the boys, but it was ok if I went.
We left early yesterday morning. He was there. My old H. NOT the alien. It was FUN. He asked my OPINION about things and LISTENED to me. I offered my opinion. I did not care about what he was thinking, what the right thing to say would be. I WAS ME. And, it felt WONDERFUL. We went to lunch.
Went again today. Again, it was like old family times. There was NO uncomfortableness, it was NORMAL. NOTHING seemed out of place... except I felt like it was "hands off" as far as my H was concerned.
He seems interested in everything I bring up...
No R talk at all, of course. But boy, do I want to know what the heck is going on???
SO... so many questions...What is up? Why is he so nice? What is going on?
How can he not see how wonderful this is? Is it really MORE wonderful with OW? HOW could it be? And if he thinks it IS, well, maybe we DO need to forget about it.
I know, I know... NO expectations... but HOW can nothing come from this? I know I have to see this as JUST a God given two wonderful and I mean WONDERFUL two days. But, I sure want something to happen.
I am trying to be somewhat distant. Is it crazy or what, but when you get in that Moving On mode something like this happens???
If he is not wondering "what the heck is going on" well, forget it. If he did not feel some connection, well, he's dead inside, and I don't want that anyway.
Anyway, I'm going to keep praying.
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
What is happening? The Lord is giving you your miracle. He is answering your prayers and giving you what your heart desires because you have been obedient.
So what should you be doing? Praising the Lord and rebuking satan because he is making you doubt what is happening. So now he is going to fight you that much harder to make you give up in order to win your family.
Step on his head and keep praising the Lord. Claiming your victory!
Hi Holding~ I am sooooo glad you went with H and sons to look at cars! That is awesome. You asked for what you wanted, were the fadulous Holding that you are and WOW!
You go girl
Quote: If he did not feel some connection, well, he's dead inside
I have felt this too!! There are times when we are together and it is just this unexplainable connection. My H has even admited to feeling it too!
Holding, enjoy this wonderful time and let it give you strength to keep on.
So now what are your goals and plans upcoming? Let's not let too much get away from us in DB'ing!!
Laurie as always has such insight. Keep up those prayers!
