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Lol @ kml! Yes! And zew is right, too! twin, I feel you. I swear I honestly get it. Been there. But your pregnancy is almost over. That baby is all but here. You're gonna get your mojo back, sister. And H - AND OW - better WATCH OUT! They ain't seen nothin' yet!

You've got this, lil' mama!!!!

Waddle today ... WIN tomorrow. You hang tight.

I usually gain a lot. First pregnancy 92lbs, second 57lbs, the twins 64lbs...... I lost over 10lbs when H moved out and I couldn't gain for a while.


Zew, thank you. I greatly appreciate your input (especially being a guy) it was a very hard day and I try and remind myself of the things you said.

Thank you so much, you don't know how badly I needed that!

Big hugs!

Thanks for making me smile

H isn't a boob kinda guy, he actually doesn't like how big they get :-( right now I am at a 34/36 G

G???? Dang girl! He's not boob man? I've never met one of those. Ok then did you put some junk in the trunk?

H is very "traditional" when it comes to sex/sexuality. He does NOT like to talk about it/sext at all. Prefers missionary or me on top/spooning positions. He has never watched porn or pleasures himself EVER and FREAKED THE F OUT the first time I touched myself in front of him. Let's just say I was very angry one night after I found out about the affair but before he moved out so to make him mad I started touching myself while in bed next to him. He was not happy, he got up and went to the couch so I just kept going and had a loud orgasm so he could hear.

Wearing "club" type clothes wouldn't turn him on.

Gah, H is driving me bonkers! I told him to keep the twins till around nap time today as I was trying to be nice and make up for the time he missed with them while we were sitting in the Dr office....... he is usually supposed to bring them home at 8am on Saturday. He brought them home at 3:45pm today. I was not too pleased but also not in the mood to fight so I didn't say anything.

I was sitting outside and having lots and lots of almost continuous contractions and couldn't feel my legs due to lower back pain. Needless to say I couldn't move.

H just stood there and commented about how Tylenol wouldn't even touch the pain I was in. He offered to take the twins back home with him, ummmmm NO I haven't seen them since Wednesday night! He chatted with me about a few random things, stopping when I had a really strong contraction and then picking up where he left off after he could see it was over.

He kept offering to help me up, ummmmm what the he'll is that going to do I can't walk! He finally left.

He keeps texting asking if I need him to do anything, I got so irritated I finally responded "yea, come have sex with me so it will toss this into full blown labor and we can finally hold Lillian"
That shut him up! I sent him another text saying "you know that was BEYOND a f'ing joke" to which he replied yes, he knew.

I told him I shouldn't have tried to be humorous with him to which he replied "no it's fine!"

I just feel like being a sarcastic bit$! To him most of the time. Because lately he seems so darn dense!

I later get a text asking if I need anything and asking me to call if either one of the twins wakes up overnight so I don't have to walk upstairs.

Oh yea, OW and her kids I believe left for Florida today.

Today just hurts. Emotionally. It's one of those days I wish I could just sleep all day and make the pain go away.

H is spending the day with his family for his brothers birthday (he has the twins too) and this would normally be something I would enjoy.

Also it's just hitting HARD today that H doesn't love me. That's killing me right now.

I know detach, detach........ but it's hard to stop loving someone

You have had a LOT going on. Just being near the end of a pregnancy (with toddler twins!!!) would be exhausting.

Detach and don't beat yourself up. Your bomb is NEW. All this is still NEW. And you're processing it while also building a baby in you and juggling a lot of other stuff. And as far as I can tell you've been tremendously strong about it. It's ok to come to your knees from time to time.

Sending you more good vibrations. You are amazing.