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I have a Dr appointment tomorrow anyway, I know it usually means labor soon...... maybe a TMI for this type of board but I checked myself(midwife showed me how with 2nd pregnancy) and I am about 2cm...... I know this baby is NOT going to wait till July.

I have started putting H's number in "spam" when I have the kids so ask texts and calls go into a folder I have to check instead of ringing. BUT yesterday morning and today he has had the kids so I make sure not to have his communications go into spam. And he has been crazy texting, asking how I am feeling, about clothes for Lilly and even complementing me on how good I am at couponing(ummmm yea I know I am good at it, it's paying for 8 people to go to Disney in a few months)

I think trying to go dark right now has made me more resentful/angry/bitter toward H as I deal with this pregnancy alone.

Instead of it allowing me to get of the roller coaster it makes me angry when I am having contractions, can't physically move due to pressure on my spine and i am trying to keep the twins from using my body as a jungle gym. It's impossible to be "upbeat", let go of any anger and really hard not to curse H out.

Early labor :-) and my Dr said he isn't going to try and stop it.

H came over, put the kids to bed and did some laundry, cleaned and packed my hospital bag for me. Helped me get comfy in bed and was affectionate during/after contractions (running his hands through my hair/hugs/hands on my shoulders and back) I told him to go home and get some sleep. We have texted a few times and he said he would be here early to get the kids dressed and take the older boys to school.

I don't know what I expect/want from him.

I always get so scared when I go into labor, you would think by now I wouldn't but it's that last minute no no no no I don't want to do this kind of thing.

Take care Twin mom. Can't wait for your bub!

Take care. Will be thinking of you!

Thinking of you, twinmom!!

We are all rooting for you and I'm even taking a few panting breaths over here...

God, I hope you get an epidural (but if that's not your style, ignore me!)

So, are we supposed to say "PUSH" now or what?

Oh, how about BREATHE!!!?

nothing else matters right now except you and baby...

let everything else just drop from your mind

it's almost baby time and you want baby to come into the world in an atmosphere of calmness and love...

Hey, guys. twinmom started a new thread that gives an update. It's titled, "Is OW just batsh1t crazy?" Or something to that effect. I'd copy a link here, but I haven't figured out how to do it on my phone yet. Lol.