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Thanks for the post labug, happy holidays to you all.

I kind of wish I had a child to make this day special for....but i am by my self.
I am not in a bad/sad mood though....i' m not in any mood at all really.

I just got a text from H that says "Merry Christmas Mimi!"

And I dont even know if I should respond because if I said the same, it wouldn't be sincere...

*shrugs* dont know what to do about anything any more..... just waiting for the miracle of some direction.

I actually hugged my WAS when I saw her and exchanged the kids today. She seemed ok with it. its not a crime right?

Labug
Thank u for the holiday wish and giving us a different perspective to focus on.

No I don't think it's a crime at alland don't start the mindreading. All is good no harm done.

After WAS and I got done opening presents we were saying merry Christmas to the kids and giving them hugs. WAS didn't look or say anything to me or even look at me so I said sincerly MERRY CHRISTMAS and she replied back and came toward me smiling with arms out for a hug. I gave her a one armed hug which she did the same. Afterward I wish I would have given her a full hug. All this to say. What happened, happened and all is good.

Time to move on a quit midreading about things we think we're doing right or wrong. If WAS's truly want to b with us they will make an effort too if not we have to try n accept the things we cannot change. So let's not beat ourselfs up

Let's live for today and enjoy our Christmas (at least try to enjoy this day). I know it may b hard to see but there are many things to b greatful for.

Merry Christmas all. Were all here all thinking/feeling the same. Stay strong

well said! I really like that. I realized that part of my problem was waiting for W to do things and then resenting the hell out of it whn she didn't. So I wanted to hug her and wish her a merry Christmas. She was sitting in her truck and I reached through the window and hugged her. She hugged me back. I won't mind reach it. I wanted it. I did it. That's my 180 on that one She actually teared up. I have no idea why...

I have 3 beautiful kids and I just took my lab for a walk. We had fun. I am alone today until dinner at my brother's house tonight, but I'm enjoying this time.

I will remain positive and project my hope for a better life whenever I see her. that is not a pursuit of her per se, but it is my dream. What's she gonna do about it...leave me?!?

Mimi,

I feel similar to you. I kind of wish there were some smaller children to share the holiday with. Yesterday I went to my parents house, exchanged a few gifts and had to leave early due to the distance, and needing to go to work early tomorrow.

It was okay....throughout the last week I'm having trouble not thinking about how great my past couple of Christmases were with H. I can't even bring myself to watch any holiday shows. I'm not sitting in self-pity though. I got up today, worked out, and cooked lunch to take to work for the rest of the week. I've been saving the American Horror season 3 knowing full well that I could use a distraction today.

I think the added stress not relating to my H right now is probably making things seem worse than they are. In jan. I'll find out if I get my dream job, and if I get my tuition waived this upcoming semester, so I'm sitting on the edge of my seat hoping for the best.