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This little essay spoke to me...I not only experienced stress or trauma during my life, but both starting from childhood. Both parent's were abusive, so I not only witnessed physical abuse of my siblings, but also received it.

My parent's divorced and that too was traumatic. I had to deal with my daughter's socio-emotional and mental challenges, and that too was traumatic. It is hard to hear you will not have the normal stepping stones of your child's childhood. That you will live in constant stress due to that child's ongoing challenges and crisis'.

Add to that the situation where we had to sell a house of 15 years, to having another go into foreclosure, to husband losing jobs, and now this with the possibility of losing my nest again, because of MLC! I guess I've lived my whole life with stress and trauma...NO WONDER I have anxiety issues! HA!

So the highlighted area of below not only spoke to me but screamed at me. I now understand a bit more why I have difficulty and why it feels so physical and at times impossible to shake off. I refuse to let this beat me anymore...I will not be taken down for what good may I be to my daughters, and for that matter the one who is experimenting?

Most of all I really have to get ahold, for myself, for my sanity. It will probably not happen as fast as I want, but I cannot let it stop me. I HAVE to fight...

Exhaustion

" The Emergency Response can only be maintained for a limited period; eventually continuous activation defeats its beneficial purpose and becomes more damaging than the stressor to which it is responding.

The length from prolonged stress to exhaustion may vary with individuals. Within the context of what I have seen with MLC and Standing, it typically takes a person 6 weeks to 3 months after Bomb Drop to recover some resiliency. Notice I said some resiliency; recovery is a gradual process. Those who do not begin to recover in 3 to 6 months reach emotional and physical exhaustion as the over-stressed body depletes its resources.

Exhaustion may be marked by prolonged panic, anxiety, difficulty with detaching and a greater tendency toward the victim mind-set. Though recovery is gradual, most people recover. If after several months you continue to have problems recovering, consider seeing a doctor and a therapist—something you should do soon after Bomb Drop in the Stress Response phase.
Some of you may read about Exhaustion and fear that since it has been 9 months (or more) you are one of those failures who has failed to detach. This is why I wanted to stress that you notice some resiliency. You are not going to be fully recovered in 6 months, or a year, maybe not in two years. Other than those with an at-home MLCer, a person who reaches an extreme level of emotional exhaustion has made no baby-steps—not even baby-steps that they reversed a day later.

Recovery starts with the smallest of sparks and that mere speck of a spark may be the only bounce you show for a long time. Hold onto that spark. Exhaustion is both physical and emotional and your body may experience the physical consequences—see your doctor, please.

But in the context of resilience I am most concerned with those who yield to emotional exhaustion; they are typically more susceptible to learned helplessness and they give up. But they don’t give up wanting their marriage; they feel more distraught and may be more likely to act with desperation.


No one and no situation is hopeless. I am not trying to discourage those of you who are feeling this way. But I want you to know that you need more help than simply reading information and receiving some fluffy advice about this not being your fault and needing to focus on your Self.

You may have been either emotionally or physically conditioned to susceptibility to stress by having periods of stress and trauma at other times in your life—childhood stress and trauma create the most susceptibility. You may have learned poor coping skills, but it is more important that you realize it may not be anything to do with your moods, behavior or choices. The physiologic stress response becomes more sensitive with activation. What that means is if you have experienced a lot of stress and trauma at other times in your life, your body will have a stronger stress response and may maintain the response longer than someone whose life has had less trauma.

See your doctor. Talk to a therapist. Join a support group. And for all of those, keep communicating.

I just wanted to thank you for the 13 things strong people don't do. And this bit above.

Your artistic work is really incredible. Is one of your daughters going to school for business administration or accounting? I know you are pursuing another career path now, but keep your eyes and your heart open, and you might stumble across someone else who would make a great business partner. Maybe someone with crafty aspirations and more business acumen.

It's also never to late to learn a new skillset. I got roped into being Treasurer for PTSA one year (and later the President)... and never thought math or paperwork or public speaking or organizing events was my strong suit either. If you convince yourself you HAVE to learn, you will. You can.

No, Chem. Major, two Minors: French and Forensics

She is creative as well!



I sell at a juried show, and that's enough on my plate...it is a ton of work, and without help not going to be practical. Many that do well have a partner that is supportive of their work.

My H. always said he was supportive of my talents, would love to find a way to profit from them. Yet he never "acted" supportive. Just words...I'm learning that actions are what count from being here!

We've both invested in my future career...he with the underwriting and me with my time and natural gifts. He probably is hoping he won't have to pay as much in A. if he gets me settled into this career. At this point I really don't care...either way I will be in the field. He may have had an attorney, way back , tell him how much I would get, but he didn't account for desertion of the marriage and home...

If push comes to shove I'll have to protect my future and my children's inheritance. Meaning , I will do what it takes to keep the house, and eventual equity down the road.

I'm thinking of getting a boarder after December...It may or may not be something I want to do. Pro's money, con's water bill goes up and no privacy, have to share kitchen.

Thinking of a student. Earlier I thought about taking in kids, I'm really good with them. Love to read and teach, understand what pre-school children need. Understand and recognize disabilities and wouldn't have to use any gas! I looked into it earlier and I know the max. I could take in without a license. This would be something that would allow me money and the ability to garden.

I could also save the nights for my other career! I was going to do it , but my H. poo poo'd it this past August. I should not have let him influence me on this. For if I had gone ahead, I would have a pretty good stream of money coming in. It would at least have paid some bills .

I still don't understand why he would have cared whether I did or didn't do that. It is really odd. Perhaps now that he's messing around he won't care. At this point , I 'm seriously looking to what I want , and how to get it.

I don't want to have any more pressure, and the sooner I get an income stream, the better. At least for my sanity!