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HI ALL ALONE-

i sure get the wacky h running m.o. i'm very tired - and beginning to lag behind here. can't run this much anymore- feelin like it's too much for too long. detachment? idk

anyway still SOUNDS good- i've never fantacized much in life. only now sometimes - about running away to somewhere i love. BUT - always brain says - "gotta deal with it- gotta see it thru" whatever the heck that all means- my stupid gut, conscience? guilt- idk - what makes us "face the music" rather than run?

me, still standing "just". hang on- only gotta remain alive today and hope for sleep tonite.

xxo

Linda-

thought of you all last evening saying waves of grief make you cry - stop- go on - cry , etc.

me too- but it's more nausea. think i'll throw up- have minute panic attack- push it back & away - go forward.

idk- it's a wonderful morning- i'm going outside & block this junk from mind (what else - i spend a huge amount of my life blocking out my mind and just being busy_) oh well huh

maybe i'll go walk over for a really good bagel- need to finish vacuuming & so on -

i know- icky isn't it to keep so busy with "chores" - i think i do it because this mlc has taken away my pleasure and ability to paint or be creative (tho it's slowly returning) i can feel it now or then- re-interest in life, crafts, art, garden, etc.

as usual huh? onward & upward. i honestly hate feeling nausea & panic so i'm relating to your wave of grief- hope your day is good

xxoo

Oh Nero, it makes me sad to read that MLC has taken away your ability and pleasure to do the things you love.

Please dont let it. Then you give it all the power and you need to take the power back.

We need to find happiness within ourselves for just this reason. They should enhance our lives, not define it. Ultimately, we are the ones responsible for our happiness. Only us.

This crisis is going to happen regardless of whether you do the things you love or not. So, why not do them anyway?

What would you want for them if you were no longer in their life by your choice? You'd want them to live, find happiness, be whole, right?

Do the things you love, find new ones, too. Find your own self worth. It isnt contingent on someone else and whether they can love you right now or not.

Life is for living. Do it up.

oh man-

i'm such a petty little rat- i'd wish he figures out what a giant jerk he was- how wonderful i am - and then "cries bitter tears" for the remainder of his dopey ole days-

ta da- what? gracious, forgiving, etc.- not yet by any stretch of the imagination.

hey- i don't wish he's dead tho, that gotta be worth something isn't it?

just got computer back- no internet all day- didn't even miss it after initial curse fest with coffee=

it was nice to meet up with you guys- need to go eat something and dig up walkin buddy while it's lite & pretty out.

xxoo you sure are cute as a button= and nice cut on your blouse- was thinking bout it today-

Well, that's ^^^^ one way of thinking. LOL! But you are right, you are wonderful.




Yes, Nero, yes, it is worth something.



Not sure if this is meant for me or Rosa. LOL!

the blouse - i'm sayin - you. it was very "smart"looking- i'm kind of a fabric, "lines", tailoring freak (i know- one would never know and i apologize for not dressing up) i just forgot in the mental hubbub.

eek

hope linda is doing okay- need to "raise" her & hope she's not stewing too much there.

LINDA -

TRY and not let this deadline stuff wig you out too badly - (i know- easier said than done). you're great- it's the personality - and the person inside that is that is our only real appeal in life- no kidding.

looook at all the beautiful movie stars that end up ditched and borken hearted- absolute proof that the package only matters a small bit- it's what's inside. would YOU only love someone pretty on the outside only??? i think not.

good luck manxxoo

i believe it - you know inside it's true too -

Thank you, Nero. No need to apologize for how you dressed. That is my favorite blouse. It is very comfortable. Thats why I wore it.

And yes, it's true. It is what is inside that matters.

My Rosa is going to be ok. I know it without a single doubt.

Hi RL!

I'm on lunch, just popping in for a quick hello.

Hope things are okay with you.

(((hugs)))

Take care,

Jaye

RL,
Are you okay? We've not heard from you since you landed back in the states. Hope your eye is recovering nicely and you are catching up on things in the real world. Please let us know you are okay.