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One thing that was good he didn't bring OW with him so it was a little easy hut it was still hard being around him for 3-4 hours. I was glad I had my sister in laws around me that day. Yes my two boys are my only life now and I really hope that I will be a good mom to them from here on. I have a very little to almost no hope at all that he will be back. But I will keep improving myself for me and my boys. Have a good night and I'll talk to you soon.

You can do this K. Keep improving yourself, be there for your boys. Let your H get on with his life and let him figure out what it was he gave up. Maybe one day he'll realize and come back, and maybe that day will be too late because you've moved on and don't want him back.

You're going to have good days and bad days. Let the good ones outnumber the bad ones. Baby steps and one day at a time is all any of us can do.

Stay strong, and keep up the PMA.

I agree with NQ So pleased that the OW wasn't at the family reunion I try and take one day at a time at the mo. I'm so busy at the mo, it stresses me out thinking about what I've got to do any other day apart from tomorrow, lol.

kelela, well said and a good positive for you. I feel the same way about my W. Just a tiny bit of hope will always stay with me, but accepting the probability.
Continue that focus on your boys. They need you more than ever, and you need them more than ever.

Thank you NQ I'm so happy that I have you and 180 helping me thru this I wish that I could be a help to others to I just don't think that I'm that strong yet to give good advice to others. Its still a struggle being on my own with my two boys now I know what my mom had to go through when my parents got divorced. My mom raised my brother and I all on her own. And I hope in a small way I won't have to do that with my two boys they deserve much better then that. Even though they drive me crazy they are my life.

Thank you I will. I think I need them more then they need me they seem a lot stronger then I am. I give them tons of hugs and kisses every night. I'm actually surprise that my S13 is letting me give him hugs and kisses he usually don't like me do that cause he thinks its only for babies. I told him it doesn't matter how old he gets he will always be my little guy. Will he is almost taller then me so I better watch out very soon he will be to tall for me to give him kisses and hugs...

K, glad to be of help. You'd probably be surprised how much help you could be. I can't give myself advice or take my own advice, but I seem to see things more clearly when looking at other sitches.

You turned out all right didn't you - remember your H is something you can't control when answering that. Your mom raised you on her own. It was hard work but she did it. If you're anything like her then you should already know that you can do it as well.

Try to forget about your H and concentrate on yourself. Let him live his life and let him realize what he's giving up. Keep working on yourself. Remember that you're doing everything for you and your boys now.

My S13 seems to be stronger than me right now and I make sure I let him know how much I appreciate when he helps me out, even if its just by making me smile or laugh again. He's only 1/2 inch shorter than me but I still get hugs and kisses from him. I'm making the most of it before he decides he's too big to cuddle his mum while watching TV.

Stay strong.

I can't stay asleep tonight my mind is racing again I just wish it would just stop so I can get some sleep.

K, just give up and get up. That's what I have to do when I can't sleep. Try and find a quiet activity to do such as reading or a boring activity to do such as ironing. You'll soon feel tired and want to sleep.
Also I've found a mug of camomile tea helps calm my mind and settles me. You can also write down your thoughts, the stuff that is whirling round in your head. Once they are down on paper then you can see them much clearer. Hope this helps It's awful when you can't sleep
Have you any wellbeing classes near you that you can go on courses for sleep management, anxiety, depression? Find out from your doctor. I went on a few wellbeing classes and I found they really helped me Some of the tips I gave you above are from my sleep management class

Don't we all hate those sleepless nights. Housework tends to do it for me - just can't drag out the vacuum at 2:00 in the morning, but I can dust or reorganize. Either that or find a really uninteresting book to read - that works as well. Sometimes just a good old fashioned cup of hot milk will do the trick.

Hope you were actually able to get some sleep.

Take care of yourself.