Talking to friend that was really down this afternoon and I wasn't any help there either. I did try, but I guess I was enough off emotionally that I just couldn't pull it off today to be much help.
Aww, sweetie. Don't blame yourself for this!
It's probably because you helped ME that morning and gave me all your sunshine!
Next time, hold some back for yourself so that you don't drain your own cup!
Here...I have an over-abundance of sunshine this morning...I'll send some your way!
I wonder if that's just one of the times, a true friend can't cheer someone up...but only be there for that someone.
In any case, please don't be so down on yourself because you weren't able to cheer up your friend! I'm sure he/she knew you were trying and felt better knowing you care.
You are awesome and wonderful and logical, and a super friend!!!
Things don't go well when I am emotionally upset and interact with D, and I KNOW this and have done it anyway lately.
I stopped reading some of my posts that were helping me to handle my emotions, I really think I have given up on D, just that there is more and more of J in the picture and I am moving Pam more and more out of the picture, well he is also.
The D will be final now in a month and a half and he still brings nothing up about it at all. Still totally focused on his job.
You know I realized this morning I had been trying to leave the bb as I feel such a DB failure. But that is me and my judgment of myself again. I didn't fail in all areas of DB. I have made some changes in me that I really like, also have learned a lot about relationships and myself over the past year. I can't call all of that a failure, just because I wasn't strong enough to save my marriage. But I have been I realize.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Doctor changed me from 50 mg to 100 mg last Thursday. She also said since I have a difficult time during PMS I can take 150 mg. Well, lucky me, it is hitting. But I still haven't adjusted to the 100 mg so not sure about taking the 150 mg.
Anyone have any ideas on that many changes that close together?
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
But I do have a question...since you are still getting used to the 100 dosage, and don't know how effective it is yet...are you sure you should up the dosage for pms?
I understand she gave you permission to up the dosage...but that doesn't mean you HAVE to, right?
Would it hurt to wait until you can see how you respond to the 100 dosage level?
I mean, if 100 is high enough to keep you level during PMS in addition to day-to-day, you won't know until the 100 has had a chance to kick in...and that's not for another week at the very least..right?
I realize I'm just asking more questions..not giving answers...sorry!
Can't comment on the ADs as I have never taken them but I am sure you will get a lot of good responses.
I can, however, offer you some extra sunshine and support today! My PMA cup overfloweth!
I too started to catch up and thought "You go girl" when I read that you and D did the hair appt thing and then pizza the next night. What happened? He turned to you for company and you did great.
Think about why that was so good and revisit the behaviors that were happening then. Lose the emotions that make you and D collide. You can do it Pam! Don't give D the satisfaction of being able to get a rise out of you. Show him that you are made of better stuff than that.
I'm here for you - thinking of you. I'm working on an upcoming conference so I haven't been on here too much, but usually check in every few days. Also on Yahoo when I remember to log in - I'm not as high-tech as you are - LOL!
Thanks for linking my old thread to my new one. I had it there and then when I tried to do another one, I lost the first one. Whatever....
totite
"Accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative..."
No, you didn't take all my sunshine!!! Hardly touched the surface. 
But I still haven't adjusted to the 100 mg so not sure about taking the 150 mg.