T, I know you're right. I want to have fun again, but am having a hard time finding the energy. I'm not sleeping well again and feel burdened by all of the logistics of my life. I don't know if I'm suffering from exhaustion or depression, but I feel paralyzed. I was actually doing really well for a while. I guess over time I've lost hope that my situation will improve and it's dragged me own.
Bea and snodderly, thank you so much for your responses. It's such a comfort being guided by your wisdom and experience. I feel like I'm digging myself out of a hole at the moment. I am really struggling with my PMA. A year ago I was so much better. I don't know what's happening to me and why this is becoming harder. I'm no longer heartbroken, just sad and exhausted. Maybe hormones.
GM, You've been through the wringer of emotions over the last year, but more so in the last couple of months. You will recover, but you will not be the same person that you were when you entered the crisis.
Your h appears not to be a happy man w/his new found life and continues to try to beat you down at every turn w/the demands of selling the home. He doesn't care where you live or how much you have to pay to keep a roof over your head because all he wants is the money to do whatever with. As for joint custody, I can understand him possibly filing for that, but it's very sad that he doesn't want his children to remain in the home that they've grown up in for a while longer.
I know you are discouraged at the moment, but please try to look forward and hopefully this situation will come to a head sooner rather than later. I do know how you feel because had he worked w/you on these issues instead of walking out the door and dropping everything in your lap, just maybe things would have gone smoother. They do tend to make mountains out of mole hills all of the time and when we think we've got it right, they through another wrench in the mix and wonder why nothing can get done.
GM, please try to get some rest over the weekend. You are tired and discouraged a the moment. I am hoping that things will get better very soon.
BTW, it's time to start a new thread. Have you got a title in mind?
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
snodderly, my stress is completely related to finances, my house and basically being jerked around for so long. I released my H emotionally long ago. I don't like who he is. I don't respect him as a man or a father. I am just struggling to regain my footing and find myself again. I want to be able to do that for my boys.
I met with my attorney yesterday and she plans to agree to the last offer that was submitted to my old attorney. She is really surprised that so many good offers weren't accepted. I had a bad feeling about that attorney. I wish I would have followed my gut and made a change. Again, my lack of money has prevented me from taking action in all areas of my life. H has had plenty and the freedom to live in accordance with his latest whim - no kids or sick parent to worry about. I resent that so much.
I feel like such a failure for not being able to live joyfully. I'm trying so hard, but can't seem to pull it together. I can't figure out what's holding me back.
