yeah it is a nice outlet. Listen keep going to those meetings. Self growth and taking care of yourself is vital. I know I put to much energy into this email thing. If it comes out it will come out when she spews venom again. I stayed away from the cheeseless tunnel last night so I am proud of myself
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
here is a little piece on the Difference between Giving up and Letting Go...
I think letting go is the same thing as detachment. Or darn close... Giving Up vs Letting Go
“There is a big difference between giving up and letting go. Giving up means selling yourself short. It means allowing fear and struggle to limit your opportunities and keep you stuck.
Letting go means freeing yourself from something that is no longer serving you. It means removing toxic people and belief systems from your life so that you can make room for relationships and ideas that are conducive to your wellbeing and happiness.
Giving up reduces your life. Letting go expands it. Giving up is imprisoning. Letting go is liberation. Giving up is self-defeat. Letting go is self-care.
So the next time you make the decision to release something or someone that is stifling your happiness and growth, and a person has the audacity to accuse you of giving up or being weak, remind yourself of the difference.
Remind yourself that you don’t need anyone’s permission or approval to live your life in the way that feels right. No one has the authority to tell you who to be or how to live. No one gets to decide what your life should look like or who should be a part of it. No one, but you.”
And remember, Our lives really are not very long…live yours well.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
TX PON... I see the difference. I get caught in the middle of both. I will focus more on letting go.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
It is hard. It took me alot of strength not to initiate any conversation. Today I took day off from work told nobody and went out in the middle of the ocean for 4 hours
wow! that sounds fantastic.... what was happening out in the middle of the ocean? LOL
I too do not initiate any conversation. Not even work ones for the most part. There are many little unimportant things I'd like to share about the day, or a joke, etc. I keep it strictly to business now. Sux. I try to be upbeat. Difficult.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
It is hard. It took me alot of strength not to initiate any conversation. Today I took day off from work told nobody and went out in the middle of the ocean for 4 hours
I envy you.
The ocean is the one place I have found that I am at peace.
I live in the middle of the US...
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
I took day off yesterday didn't tell W. Went to vaca house and out on boat. I left my chart maps out and she noticed. She asked me "did you goto vaca house today" I said yup. She was like you did. You took another day off. I said yup. All positive. It spiked my anxiety a little when she asked me but I know why. Fear of her being upset but I slapped myself out of it and said so what. I don't need to tell her. She doesn't speak to me and she feels smothered so not going to tell her every detail of my life.
Yesterday she was definitely talking to me more. I didn't initiate any conversations. Haven't in two days. Outside kid and house stuff.
This morning she brought up a camp out and asked me to go with S. I said absolutely.
We are suppose to go out tonight as a couple. Planned months ago before her withdrawing. Going to go with the flow on this one. Tickets are bought see what she says.
This will be 3rd day not initiating any conversation. certainly helps my anxiety not being rejected. When she does talk I try not to be sucked in.
Even though she was being nice last night I went out and did GAL. Went off to the open mic. this time I got up and belted out some of my originals. met some new peeps. It was cool.
