Well, it was a quiet night last night. Just me, the dogs, the cat and my good friend Jack. W was working the baseball tournament and YS called and said "Hey, did you know there was a baseball tournament" (Gives you an idea of how clued in he is about what goes on at the house.)
He said he was going to watch it. So I was solo. Got some housework done, then read a little and self-medicated. Jack and I couldn't spend a lot of time together since I had a PT test this morning. When we were younger, it was almost a point of pride to go get hammered and then show up in the morning to take one, but I've slowed down a little bit, wised up a little bit...but mostly just got a little older.
So I went to bed by 10pm again. About 15 minutes before W and YS got home so I wouldn't have to talk to her. Ended up waking up 30 minutes before the alarm went off. I'm not used to getting so much sleep.
So I really didn't talk to W much the past two days and probably won't today either. It's just as well. I don't want to argue and I'm still ticked about her working all weekend.
I think I'll head into Austin tonight. The weather's been pretty good and there are some pretty decent places there to hang out.
Yep, RR is fairly close. I'm about an hour+ away so don't get down there all the time, but Austin's a cool town. I like going down there.
I'm looking forward to baseball season starting though I've never watched the Express. Never got into basketball much and I don't care what Z says I can't get into hockey.
Hope everyone had a great weekend. I got quite a bit done around the house and have the realtor coming this afternoon so the house should be on the market pretty quick.
Next month, we will have owned this house for 7 years. I've never lived in one place that long in my life..of course, I left for 2.5 years right in the middle, so I really didn't live here the whole time, but the family did and we thought of it as home until all this crap started. Now I'm really kind of looking forward to moving. Should make a decent amount when we sell it too. Of course, I guess that will all go toward the next house anyway.
Didn't see W much Saturday since she was gone all day working the tournament. YS and I worked around the house. Sunday, W asked me what I was upset about, which led to an unpleasant R talk that I should have avoided. I left to go to Home Depot and when I came back, she was in a better mood. We did some work on the flower beds, watched a movie and finished straightening up the house.
I'm not sure that what I'm doing qualifies as "Piecing" I mostly feel like I'm just biding my time waiting for some sign from her. I've almost given up trying to reach her. She'll show flashes of her old self, start talking like there is a future...then just sinks back into her own little world.
I don't think I'm doing a great job of acting "As If" either, but at this point I tend to forgive myself pretty easily. I've been fumbling around with this stuff way too long. Most of our conversations, when we have them, just end up with me telling her "I'm sorry you feel that way, but if you are that miserable and you think I'm that much of an a$$, why are you still here?"
You're not as old as Dr. Seuss are you???? I guess you'll just have to accept the fact that birthdays are here to stay (God willing) and you survived another year.
May your next be astoundingly full of good surprises!
My grandmother's bday is also today, so you have good company with her and Dr. Seuss.
Happy Birthday!
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
