Guys, thank you for your support. I need a hug--wish you were all here.
Today was really stressful.
I pulled into the parking lot and my H was there, so we walked together to the building. He noticed my cool outfit and asked if I was dressed like Pink. He was blatantly checking me out, which I didn't mind. I said he looked good (got rid of his long hair and shaved a beard he had grown since he started seeing the new "GF".)He said he had a bad feeling about the meeting. I said to push away the negative thoughts.
So we went in the office.
The mediator actually made things worse, I think. I felt as though my H had hired/swayed her, but I found her, so that can't be. I felt attacked. We came up with something that was pretty much the same as what we had before with maybe a slight improvement. I don't feel good about the outcome but I'm sick of this so I'll say yes. However, the mediator emailed her write up and had some errors and something I didn't agree to, so it seems my H and I will have to talk about this again. UGH!!!!!!!
I was nice today and brought him a couple of my specialty brownies for Easter. He was thankful and asked if he could call my mom on her b-day tomorrow. I said she would like that. We said goodbye in the parking lot with an awkward hug.
Cried a while during the drive to work. I'm not in the happiest of moods now either :-(
It's just really overwhelming. And it's not like we even finished everything today. We have to talk again.
I told my L the outcome and he said we should go to Special Masters. I will say no to that.
Thank you again, guys. It felt so good to read your messages when I got back. You're the best.
Sorry the mediator didn't work out as well as planned. It is hard that things have gotten dragged out. It does make it harder to move on, but you have made some good decisions for yourself to see the end of this path sooner than later.
It soon will all be behind you!
Spring is all about new beginnings...right?!! And, that, my friend, is something to celebrate!
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.
I am sorry Tori that this is becoming into something you did not want. Be sad. And remind yourself that you are still taking steps forward even if the strides are a little smaller than you hoped they would be.
So much love to you
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home