Please be careful eating cookies/candy right out of the freezer. I did that years ago and knocked my jaw out of alignment and broke a molar.
I'm glad you are enjoying the holidays a bit!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Got another call for a house showing, tomorrow. I had run into a realtor at the beach yesterday morning. He had insuinated that he had TWO! different people who were interested in my house and that I should switch the listing to him.
I used to be a realtor and actually found that to be infuriating. I told him as a former realtor I found it hard to believe that he was holding on to two potential sales in the hopes that I would eventually list with him. (A person who I have never seen before and one of about 5,000 licensed real estate agents on Oahu) And that if he really had customers interested in my house he should schedule a showing. What I didn't tell him was it would be a cold day in Hell before I listed with someone as unethical as he seemed to be.
The agent who is bringing the people tomorrow is a woman, so not this guy. Whose name I committed to memory.
I sure hope my VA job starts soon, so I have a better idea if I even have a hope of getting a full time job. I have been submitting applications for GS jobs. I finally had one that came back and showed me as "qualified" for a GS-9. Unfortunately I was not one of the top candidates. But that means I am at least doing the paperwork right and submitting all the correct supporting documents.
I am trying hard to continue to be the best person I can be. And for some odd reason people are seeing the difference in me. I had 5 different people tell me how beautiful I looked today. Funny, because I had thrown yoga pants and a tunic style blouse over my swimsuit so I could dash into the commissary. And I have sunscreen in my hair, and half a slap of make-up on.
My inner peace must be showing. I miss my X, but he has given his heart to someone else. And there is nothing for me to do but do what is best for me and keep moving on! I am lonely. But not alone. I have friends and family who love me.
I plan to spend New Years Eve on the boat. Some friends are coming over to watch Fireworks from there. I will sleep on the boat that night. I do not want to wake up in my bed here. The memories of last year, when my then H came to me and told me he wanted to stay with me are bothering me. That was the 6th time he flip-flopped between us. And when he told me that when he woke up with her New Years Day he felt icky and like he was making a mistake, I believed him. And took him back with open arms and believed his promises to 'work' on things.
Well, like MWD posted today on FB: Being present in body is not working on anything. And I let him walk all over me so many times. So I will wake up on the boat this New Years Day. I bet I won't feel icky. I bet I feel peace and contentment.
This year has flown by. And I sure plan to make the most out of next year! I hope everyone reading this does too!
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
I too plan on making 2013 a great year. This year was not so great but I learned so much about myself and about enjoying every day and every moment. I know I can put these lessons learned into practice in the new year.
As hard as this year was for me and my family I know there are many other families who were much less fortunate then I. I am grateful for my healthy and happy girls and the roof over my head.
Much love
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13
Well hot dog! Our house got showed to two different sets of people today. Will wonders never cease?!?
I keep trying to do one big chore each time the house gets showed. Today I used special marble floor cleaner and scrubbed the devil out of the master bathroom floor. Amazing how nice it looks.
My DIL came over and helped me get ready for the showing this morning. Which was great because the realtor called to tell me about the showing about an hour after I had started taking down Christmas decorations yesterday. Amazing how I only get these calls when I have made big giants messes. Maybe I should make big giant messes more often?
Putting away all the decorations got me a little depressed. I think it was seeing how much stuff is in the attic that I need to deal with, sooner or later.
But everything will get done. It always does. I have powered through so many moves in this life already. What is one or two more?
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
Wendy, It never fails that when a person is in the middle of a big project or has a mess laying around, someone wants to come over. I'm sure your home is beautiful, exceptionally clean and will win someone's heart over very soon.
May the new year bring you a paying job, a home sale and a new home to call your own. Happy New Year!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
So I watched the fireworks from the trampoline at the front od my boat. Curled up in sleeping bags with my BFF and her H. It got a little cold..... Brrr 68 degrees!
After midnight they went over to stay in a friends condo in Waikiki. I sat out on the back of the boat writing in my journal untill 2 am. It was fun listening to all the parties come to an end. When it was nice and quiet I tucked myself into my cozy bunk. I slept like a baby, rolled out of bed at 7.
My friends met me for breakfast at the world famous Moose McGillicuddy's. Then I went and exchanged my kids Christmas presents for what they wanted. They took all the misc. stuff and consolidated it into one nice camera.
I followed that up with a shopping trip where I finally found another pair of pants that fit. And I used my really good coupon I was saving for a special occasion, Love Macy's! So when the VA people call me I am set to work. I have appropriate clothes and we all know how much of a difference that makes!
I hope everyones New Year is off to a great start!
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
It's the second day of the new year, and it already feels like the old year. Haha! You sound like you had a great time, if somewhat different.
I hope for you, a year of things going according to plan, adult children being independent, house sold, and ex-H realizing the other side is actually not green, but a dreary desert and what he had was the garden of Eden in comparison. Oh, and that dream job.
Take care, Wendy.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
