Thanks Snodderly. I hope your week is good as well.
Miss Agnes, he didn't disagree. He said something about it being difficult to call while he's at the tables and not liking his phone. He's cell phone incompatible by nature, plus half blind and forgets his glasses (or is too vain to wear them?) so there was prob some truth in that.
Today he's being standard issue H. He did mention to S19 that when he gets his license back he can go with H to the casino in Canada. Thought that was quite interesting....
Off to my job interview. Fingers crossed.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Well I have a job. Fast food is not what I wanted. But. I'll take it, its better than nothing. At least it is here in town. That will save me about $50 per week in gas. So. Step one toward my new life?
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
I know that you didn't want a fast food position, but for the time being, the money you earn there will help you out. It's a stepping stone until you can find something better. One step at a time and you are slowly starting your new life.
Congratulations on getting the job (even if it's not what you wanted).
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
H just announced he's going back to the casino tonight. I presume he will increase his time spent there until that's where he lives and this is where he visits.
On the upside, I can stop applying for jobs. I'll still look, in case the ideal opportunity arises, but at least I no longer have to grind out those apps.
Its cold. Outside, and inside too.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
Congratulations on the job - even if it is not the field you wanted, it sounds like it is beneficial for your situation right now. And it will get you in a new environment which may help, too!
I also wanted to say how much I admire your sense of humour through all of this. Right now Eeyore sounds happier than I do - which is a 180 for me in the wrong direction. I am working on it!
It sometimes seems to be as if I have entered a parallel universe of sorts, it is that disconcerting to me. I never would have laid bets that my SO would betray me nor would I have predicted that I would become "that girl" who is still sad four months later. HUH? But I think that whatever universe we ended up in, we are stronger than we think and that the continued kindness of strangers in a world that seems a bit bleak is the biggest blessing of all.
I agree it will be a good thing; some money, new people, distraction etc.
Baby steps... baby go boom lol. (No worries, I'm well padded!)
And Portia, I have my Eeyore days too; rarely have Tigger days, mostly go between Pooh and Piglet I'd say.
I think because I've gone through the A sitch before, and had years and years of spew, and the fact that H is still living here and carrying on like nothin' happened, (blessing and curse there) I have callouses in some spots. In other spots, the above sometimes makes it seem even worse... cause I've tried so hard for so long... and the bomb makes it seem like that was all for naught. And that part of it is HARD.
And H left a couple hours ago for the casino again... smh.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
Off to "orientation" today. H was shocked to learn I won't be here to cook dinner. Never mind that he's known for 3 days that I have to go to this... lol.
No real changes from his quadrant.
I have been busy with Christmas related stuff and housework. Even got in a walk yesterday, and think I'll go for a short one now as we are having an unusually nice day.
Keeping on keeping on.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
