I just hate being in limbo like this. How are we going to resolve anything, even logistics, if neither of us never sleep in the apartment or talk to each other? He texts me to tell me he won't be here, but I don't know when he plans on discussing anything. I won't pursue, though!
Hahaha, I know. I keep checking all of the replies (not just on my thread, but also the ones that are typical on the front page!) I like reading all of the comments. I wish I could contribute more to other peoples' situations, but I don't think I am well-versed enough in any of this to really help
This morning was so difficult! I woke up alone in my bed again. Husband was not at the apartment. Pink Floyd's "Wish you were here" came on the radio, and it brought me to tears. I miss him so much.
the tears might jusy be because floyd is horrible music! =)
anyway. keep your head up. dont worry about posting. believe it or not, what you write about your sitch can help people. i see stuff in yours that makes me think about my sitch. thank you.
Hah! I love Pink Floyd :P I'm sorry that this is so hard for all of us. It [censored].
Tonight, I am going out with a friend. I just signed up for a zumba class tomorrow evening! I am so incredibly uncoordinated and the first time I tried it, last week, my coworker laughed at me (which is ok, it's all in good fun) but it's great exercise and maybe I'll make a new friend. Wednesday night I am going to see an individual counselor. I also have plans for the weekend as well!
Things are looking up. I unfortunately hate my job, so whenever I'm at work, I feel depressed. It used to be such a relief to go home and spend the evening with my husband, even just zoning out on the couch with one another.
I am incredibly excited about the prospect of traveling for (at least) a year. I'm saving up for this big trip to go to Australia with some friends (which, ironically enough, is where my husband is from). His family keeps asking me to visit them if I do go back there. I wonder how that will go.
I guess overall things are going ok. It's just those moments when I think of some wonderful memory or see a picture or hear something that reminds me of the good things when it gets so difficult to accept that this is happening.
One of my co-workers just came in and handed me her phone number. She said anytime I wanted to get together or talk or do something, to give her a call! It made me feel really happy. If nothing else, I am making new friends and doing new things. I am pleased about that.
I also no longer really feel the need to reach out to him. He keeps texting me to tell me when he won't be home, but I haven't replied nor have I told him I won't be home. Why should I have to??
Sorry to keep posting... it has been a rough morning. I'm also taking care of things that I should have taken care of long ago... I just made myself a podiatrist appointment. Have had this problem for awhile and thought I should finally go and have it looked at!
How long does it take, once you've detached, for the other person to start getting a little bit closer? It has been two weeks for me, one week of NO contact, and we are getting more and more distant from one another. There has to be, like, a breaking point, right?
I brought this from another thread.
There is no timeline.
He may not pull closer.
Hear that.
Yes, it's terribly painful but it's the reality.
This is about you creating a new person within the body of the old sd. A woman who is confident and happy with or without H.
What I hear now is all the things you are doing are focused on getting a reaction from H. Please work on letting that go.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
