And you may end up with a crazy story involving your soon-to-be divorced next door neighbor trying to pick you up in the dark storage bowels of a model train museum while you drink keg beer with random hash house harriers after you literally ran over her on a jog 30 miles from home in the pouring rain under the biggest double rainbow in recorded history.
Ya, we're gonna need to hear more of this story!
The weird/funny/twisted part of me and this potential Europe trip is I'd actually like to go as a totally single guy. I want to just do whatever I want without worrying about the morarity of having a W (in any capacity) back at home... If you catch my drift.
And the dating question is just when it would be "okay" to start actively persuing other women for a more than friends relationship. This could include online dating or getting set up on dates with friends of friends. I don't feel ready yet, and may not until/if D is final, was just putting it out there.
BEN-so is this^^^ your status now? Too much work to bother? Never saw the follow up posts - soooo I wondered...
I went to Europe as a single woman. Years later I went as a happily m woman. The latter was better...the single woman travelling in Europe is often like a Penthouse Forum article MEANING it's just a fantasy...not reality, I had fun and a fling or two, or three...
But that means a lot of time alone at night too and a lot of flings that were nothing special..although in such lovely areas...
and sometimes in a beautiful historic place, a "date" can say the stupidest things b/c hey, they don't "get" you b/c how can they? They don't know you.
Good luck Ben-hope at least you learned something so you aren't in the same boat in 3 years
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
I wouldn't say I'm done completely. I'm just trying to convince myself that I'm moving on, because I feel that it's the only way to truly get W back; for the both of us to believe that I'm over it.
Basically what I meant about going to Europe is if after 4-5 more months of the same of this, I'd rather just go as a pure bachelor. And it's easy for you to think that I'm going with the goal of man-whoring it up, but I'm not really that type of guy. I saved myself for M. I'm much more of a drink-beers-in-a-pub type of guy, but I'd like to just let whatever happens happen without feeling guilt.
Also, if we were to somehow R, Europe trip would probably be off. It's most likely she wouldn't be able to get the time to take off to make it worth while.
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Good luck Ben-hope at least you learned something so you aren't in the same boat in 3 years
Not sure if this you're being serious here...
What can I say... I'm obviously conflicted still. That's why I ramble on this board instead of having stupid conversations with my W. I'd love to just ask her now WTF she want's to do, if she thinks she wants a D, if she still loves me, what could I do to prove to her I truly want to be with her, etc.
She knows how I feel, I wrote her that letter. I guess I just fear that she'll have the mentality that I wrote the letter, but I'm not following up on it at all. Kind of the same thought she had when she wrote me the card in Feb and it didn't go well.
... ahh life, so confusing at times.
M:28 | W:28 | T:4.5 | M:2.5 | No Children EA1 Uncovered: Jun 2011 EA2 Uncovered: 2011-09-29 S: 2011-09-29 I'm moving on: 2012-05-08 My story: http://bit.ly/K3ttPM
I know how you feel that you just want to ask her those questions, but in a sense you can't really now. Like you said, you stated how you felt and she knows. If she has not brought up D, I would not bring that up or push her because then if you put that thought into her head (even if it is already there) then it's in there more.
My H, unlike your W, has mentioned D but he says it's all in my hands now how we get D. My take is that if he really wants it, he should go file and do it!
You are doing a great job!
M: 27 H: 28 T: 8 yrs M: 6 yrs Sep: 2/18/12 (I have no feelings for you!) EA/PA Uncovered: 2/26/12 H introduces OW to his fam: June H moves ALL stuff out: July
Thanks HaP, Just going to keep on keeping on. The seed has been planted. Let's see if the ground is fertile enough for something to root.
Going away for the weekend with 7 or so buddies for some cheap american beer and some golf. Looking forward to it. I'm thankful this has happened when I'm young. Makes the GAL a lot easier.
M:28 | W:28 | T:4.5 | M:2.5 | No Children EA1 Uncovered: Jun 2011 EA2 Uncovered: 2011-09-29 S: 2011-09-29 I'm moving on: 2012-05-08 My story: http://bit.ly/K3ttPM
