Underdog, I'm doing well. Had a great time in Colorado. My cab ride through the Gorge was GREAT. Then I went up to Summitt County & hung out with GD1 and went skiing at Keystone. I am planning to come back in February. I want to ride www.skitrain.com . I'll have meant to check out your thread; will do so in the near future.
Uh, only check out my thread if you're hungry and looking for justification to go on a rampage for dessert! Things got a little food oriented last night and into today...
Though that might be a whole lot more appetizing than eating a frog!
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
rachel - thank you rachel, i am getting more and more pleased with myself and that makes everything in life a little easier ya know?
deb - hanging close? he's cramping my style! LOL
betsey - as usual sweetie, thank you for stopping by, and thanks for the kudos about the positives, i really do have to focus on them or else i would go crazy
blair - well i for one really appreciate the help around here blair, there is so much we all need to keep the divorce monster at bay...
pam - nails? my toe nails are fine, my fingeranils? now that is antoher story
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POSITIVES
1) hubby seems to be spending alot more time wtih me as of late. i even remarked that he has been in quite a movie watching mood lately, he didn't say anything but i did tell him that i have been enjoying it
2) he is again wanting me to play video games with him - head to head combat, doesn't that make strange bedfellows
3) have i ever mentioned how much my daughter is my life???
Loved your positives. Especially the one about your DD. I feel the same way about my three.
My H and I have started out watching alot of movies during our alone time too - which we haven't done in a long time. Then afterwards (or earlier) the interupts - oh well - can catch the rest of the movie later huh? And catch up on the sleep too?
Hope all continues to look up!
totite
"Accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative..."
deb - why does everyone see progress and i don't??? i guess cause i live with this day to day and it doesn't seem to be going anywhere
totite - yeah, been lots of movie watching lately, really don't understand it. i don't comprehend why he wants to spend time with me, be nice to me, yet withhold sex - it's like i am being punished for the indescritions of HIS - that just doesn't make any sense - oh well
t2 - oh yeah, TWO last night, oh my goodness, he is really crimping my style
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POSITIVES
1) hubby wanted me to watch TWO movies with him last night, one was NOT enough, so i spent my whole evening watching movies
2) hubby cooked the entire dinner last night, grilled salmon, asparagus, and mushrooms, yum yum - i went ga ga over it!!!
3) wanted to bake cookies really bad last night, so he asked, if i help can we bake some cookies, so we were both in the kitchen last night baking cookies, dang, he is addicted to those cookies
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just journaling
like i said to totite, i am in the frame of mind lately that i am being punished for my husband's indescritions - why is it that he won't be intimate with me???
i really have to get over this because it is consuming my life, i have to drop the rope on this one - i have to act "as if" - as if i will never get any again
oh well, not really ready for a pity party this morning
he's not with holding the sex from you. That is his last hurdle that he has to deal with before he can give himself completely to you.. Guilt is a hard thing to get over.... Especially when the one you hurt is so forgiving and loving to them..
Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust. A little less time for the rest of the world, And more for the two of us. Kisses each mornin, I love yous at night, Just like it used to be.
I agree with Kevin. Could it be that he sees himself as 'sullied' or not worthy of you? That he needs more time to convince himself that things ARE working out and the changes are possible?
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"