I barely have the energy to post anything here. My fight for my marriage is officially over> Why? Because my wife took her life this morning at 3:00 a.m while I decided to give her some space and clear my head while i went down to southern ontario.\\
Instead of being there with her and telling her how much she meant to me and how much i treasured her , i decided to go a little dim for the weekend and come back on monday where we were going to go on a trip.
No words can express my feelings of guilt and other emotions whdi id ont understand.
Be careful ou there. 9
BITS M-46 W-42 M-16y T-19 y s10 s15 BombDec.19/09 Sep-F16/10 Sep Papers signed by W- June 30/10 Recon July 5/10 PA foundOut- Oct 30/10 Mental HospNov/10 moved out Nov/10 Leg Sep Mar 15/11
M: 42 - W: 41 - M: 18 - T: 23 - D:16 S:14 EA - July 2010 NC w/EA - Nov 2010 Piecing - Jan 2011 I ask for div - Jan 2012 Div papers filed - Mar 2012 I move out - July 2012 Divorce final - Nov 7, 2012
My friend, I'm deeply sorry for this. Words fail me and my heart aches for you and your family.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your sons.
I must say it now....
This is NOT your fault!
She was in pain and YOU were not the reason for this.
This is NOT on you brother it is not!
You stood for your M
You stood for your wife
You stood for your sons
You loved her
And
You did ALL you could
I can't imagine the pain you are in, it is far worst than I can ever fathom, but her decision to do this is not yours and there was nothing you could have done no matter what anyone tells you.
You are in my prayers, my thoughts, my heart
I am proud to have known you if only through this site.
My heart hurts for you 9. I am so sorry to hear this news.
As 2step said, you did everything you could. Please know that we are here for you. Take care.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa
Oh 9... I'm so, so sorry my friend. I'm thoughts are with you this afternoon. I can't express how deeply I feel for you and the pain that I know you must be going through.
What 2Step said is all so very true. This is not on you. Your W had some very deep emotional issues... you know that.
It was never your job to find happiness for your W. People must find their own happiness... all of us. Our S's cannot provide that for us. Your W is no different. It was not your job to find peace or happiness for her life.
No guilt over this man. You did EVERYTHING that you could to save your M and the R that you had with your W. We know that you did this bc you loved her and your family.
You did more than 99.9% of the population would ever have done. Remember that.
We are proud of you...
BITS Denver
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
9, that's so horrible and sad for you and your kids...
Please, I implore you, DO NOT own this... there really is nothing we can do when someone makes a choice to end their life. They just find the opportunity.
It was not a cry for help, because attempted suicide is rarely fatal. She intended to do this and she had her reasons and it had NOTHING to do with whether she knew you loved and cared for you...
