Are you indicating that the first two things that you suggest you would change would be:
+ your personal wounds
+ your fears
Is the following your third?
Originally Posted By: LilaGirl
My inability - sometimes - to be happy ... with small things. With easy things. I complicate stuff. I want to keep it simple and find pleasure in small joys - I think I do more now than ever, but I still crave a different life.
Big time working on that. I don't, but I do more than I ever have in my life - that's a recent thing in the past 6 months.
But the way, three years ago, I basically met someone and had a baby with him, etc. makes me a little reluctant to trust myself - but I'm healing a lot more from that now.
First... thank you for your honesty on this answer...
Could you give me one example in your life where you failed? Where you thought you could accomplish the goal and were unable to?
I understand how you could loose trust in yourself due to an unplanned pregnancy...
I would like a different example than the above...
An example of where you actually were entrusted (either by someone else or yourself) with accomplishing something and you were unable to fulfill the request...
I'm off to bed. D is sleeping and I must sleep too. I had googled something just now, and found this link which I can tell I will love - the opening is really cool: http://www.chrismaser.com/convers-frm.htm
Big time working on that. I don't, but I do more than I ever have in my life - that's a recent thing in the past 6 months.
But the way, three years ago, I basically met someone and had a baby with him, etc. makes me a little reluctant to trust myself - but I'm healing a lot more from that now.
First... thank you for your honesty on this answer...
Could you give me one example in your life where you failed? Where you thought you could accomplish the goal and were unable to?
I understand how you could loose trust in yourself due to an unplanned pregnancy...
I would like a different example than the above...
An example of where you actually were entrusted (either by someone else or yourself) with accomplishing something and you were unable to fulfill the request...
I started making a film in Italy. Everyone told me "too expensive" "don't do it" "you're nuts" - I got funding from the mayor of the town - quite a lot of money. The people I worked with were very eager to see me return.
I simply never did (I had a baby instead). Basically the mayor of that town entrusted me with money to make the film, and I only have some footage...
I have learned a lot today about you... all very enlightening and I always appreciate your candor... I say that with the utmost sincerity and respect...
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From the answers that you provided to my questions above... is there anything that you might have found interesting about your answers... anything that you might have discovered about yourself...?
This is an aside - but so weird. I just went in and thanked BF for putting her to sleep and also for helping me this morning. He was like, "Yeah, that's what I do."
Then he said, "I got fired."
How is this an aside? How is this not discussed further? This is huge! The guy just lost his job and you're going on about how he didn't go to the block party with you? Can you imagine how scary this is for him? And how financially devastating for the both of you? How can you keep talking about going to counseling and the like when there is no money coming in for that stuff? This explains why he's been talking about weird stuff - he's feeling like a failure and tempted to run away and save the world. And I think it's just really peculiar that you glossed right over this terribly important development. Don't you wonder how long it has been since he got fired? How long he might have been faking going to work in order to avoid telling you? Maybe this is even the whole reason behind his desire to break up.
your sole source of income just ended. your BF lost his high paying job in today's market (what does he do?) All your plans have just ended. His and Yours.
his world just turned upside down in the worst way, and its barely a bleep on your radar.
you really need to look at this, at your response (although i understand the revenge part of your response) but at your response of still remaining confused on his emotions, etc. you barely, if at all, mentioned any sympathy for what he's going through.
"In a ham and eggs breakfast, the hen is involved, but the pig is committed".
I have learned a lot today about you... all very enlightening and I always appreciate your candor... I say that with the utmost sincerity and respect...
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From the answers that you provided to my questions above... is there anything that you might have found interesting about your answers... anything that you might have discovered about yourself...?
I'm usually pretty introspective... so I didn't have to dig deep for those answers - but the way in which they are put together is interesting -
About my accomplishments - trust in myself - maybe being able to find my own answers?
But I would like to hear from you on where you were going with this.