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Would you believe I've never had a funnel cake? My brother about passed out when I told him that. They just don't look very good.

Now the mini donuts, on the other hand, are a completely different story.

My horoscope for today said :

If you love something set it free. If it comes back to you it is yours. If it doesn't, it never was. You have probably heard some variation of this quotation, Gemini. But don't take it too seriously. You are now considering letting something go. Or, more precisely, letting someone go. But this person does not want to be let go. He or she just wants to be better understood, better cared for, better loved. This warm and fuzzy stuff is something you often find challenging, but it's about time you learned. If you let someone go, that person may not come back. Work on your nurturing skills instead.

Does anyone actually believe in this stuff?
This gave me goosebumps, literally.

Hey DG, I have never believed in them...but reading them sometimes I get goosebumps. I have not cried in a while until yesterday when I went and filed for Divorce...I was ok until I got home and layed on the couch and watched tv....It seemed every show and commercial was about a lovley couple...I shut the tv off and several hours later my eyes hurt from all the crying. I got up today with the bright sunshine and said to myself this is a brand new day for OLW and I will be ok.....So I follow your thread....and we all can say what we should have done...If we learn this hard life lesson and then maybe we will be blessed with another chance at a relationship....That is what I live by....

I'm not sure that I necessarily believe in them DG but that certainly was timely. I am a Gemini too, very interesting paragraph.

Every weekend I swear I am going to sleep in, and every weekend I wake up way too early.

This morning I am wide awake at 4:30am, but I refuse to get out of bed this early. I'm praying I'll be able to fall back asleep.

I texted my H last night, trying to reach out to him, but received no response. I'm officially done trying.

((hugs)) I have the "waking up too early, can't get back to sleep" issue too. It's no fun.

DG, if by trying you mean trying to control, trying to change, trying to deny, trying to fight.

Then this is good.

Whether this is the moment or not, it will happen.

Think of a moment in the last 5 months were you felt really good. A moment of peace, in the moment.

Now realize that moment is always there for you.

That moment wasn't dependant on something you H did or didn't do.

So with this you realize, finding that moment again is not dependent on you H.

Just you.

When I say done trying, I mean done trying to make this work.

I am woman enough to realize that I can't go chasing after a man who doesn't want to be chased.

Journaling---

I went to bed early last night, I was exhausted.

It started to storm, and I was awakened by the sirens going off. I'm pretty proud of myself, storms usually freak me out but I was calm. I got up, turned on the news for a moment, saw that we weren't in any imminent danger, then went back to bed.

H responded to my text I sent on Fri night about 2am. My initial text to him was about a memory that I had about us and he responded with one himself. Reading it made me feel good, it shows me that he still cares, but I know it is just a text and I won't read too much into it..

Today S10 & I are planning on meeting up with my S & her family for a bit, and I am hoping we'll have a good time.

That was an interesting horoscope!

Hey H did respond right? gotta look for the baby steps. I hope you have a great day with your S!