I can forgive my W, and I can forgive myself. I don't want to be an angry bitter person.
Yes, you have to do this for YOU. MWD says this is best gift you can give yourself.
Originally Posted By: islander
I believe that God has a plan for me, and this is part of his plan. I don't have to understand it, I just have to trust in Him.
Islander I think your quote in your signature line is reflective of part of God's plan for all this. Live it. He has a much bigger plan than we can ever imagine. I think you're in a good place.
Originally Posted By: islander
I know I will never be the same H again. Not even close. I wasn't even that bad, but I am not going to say I was perfect. I know where I went wrong. I saw it coming, I just didn't believe it would happen, and thought I had time. That was my biggest mistake.
I completely get what your saying here. I can resemble a lot of this myself.
You know yourself better than we know you Islander. Maybe you have reached your breaking point, I dont think you have , but I am wrong so often that it doesnt matter.
I do know this of you , you are a decent man that will be fine someday with or without your wife. If she comes back, she will be very lucky to have the finished Islander as her mate with the practice model gone.
If she doesnt, she will be the one that isnt fullfilled by the understanding of the new man. YOu dont have to worry about her either because the new islander will be on his way to happiness.
This I KNOW to be true.
I echo some of the above thoughts, take a breather and then make your final decision.
Either way, I got your back buddy.
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I am still doing good, feeling positive and good about myself. I am more confident now than ever that I am going to be alright, but better than alright.
Went to the gym with my D this morning. Not her favorite place to go, so she wrote a contract up and made me sign it, where I agreed to do an art project with her if she went with me. We both signed it. She is so funny.
While she was in the daycare at the gym, she didn't play with anybody, just stood at the window trying to see me and waving when she did. I spoke to the lady running the daycare when I left, and she told me my D just stood there the whole time waning for me. She said she was happy, but just waiting for me. She told me that she could tell my D loved me very much, bc she talked to her about what we were doing today and that she was excited to be with me. Made me feel good.
My D is paining the castle bank tha I made for her now, then I am gaming her swimming.
It made me feel really good when I talked to the lady at the gym, the way she spoke about my D. I really don't need my W to be happy anymore. I don't know what the future holds, but I am looking forward to tomorrow, for me, for us.
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I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...