Feeling a little bit better. The sun is out and it's supposed to be a beautiful day. I am wearing a dress for the first time this year, and I feel beautiful.
I am looking forward to my appt with my C today. I really need to unload.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤
I am glad to hear that you are feeling beautiful today. There will come a day when you will feel beautiful everyday, I am sure of it. I think we move in babysteps also, and tend to overlook our minor victories. Enjoy yourself today!
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M:34 W:28 SD:9 D:6 (pr) M:3 T:6 Separated 1/16/11 ILYBNILWY 10/25/10 PA discovered 11/12/10, began about 10/1/10
I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...
I don't know why but I feel on the border of an anxiety attack. Get a grip on your emotions. [color:#CC0000]Where the head goes, the heart will (eventually) follow.Are You going to be subject to inexplicable whims and anxieties the rest of YOUR life?? NO. You will "get happy, if it means you fake it til you make it, or you do the cognitive work needed, or you picture a STOP SIGN to these emotions OR you listen to happy music and or you pray, but somehow you MUST BE IN CHARGE OF YOUR HAPPINESS, it won't "land" on you for no reason and then stay. It's up to YOU. Believe that. It's true. That's why Aristotle said "Happiness is a virtue" b/c he knew we had to create and sustain it in our lives. [/color]
I hate when this happens. I am just going to close my eyes and pray.
Prayer is a start. But notice the helpless tone you are using..."hate it when that happens..." as if a branch fell on your car b/c of the wind. Please, this is your life. It's the only life you get and it's a short one. So Let's stop that "happens" stuff, and let's see YOU take charge of your life.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
I am 25, believe me I am trying very, very hard. I have set backs sometimes. I get scared, I feel insecure, and sometimes hopeless. I know I'll get through it, it's just a matter of time.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤
I experienced my first anxiety attacks on Sat and Sun - they are horrible and throw the depression into a downward spiral. I'd suggest going out for exercise right now - push yourself.
I feel a lot better after my session with my C today. It was what I needed. We discussed my need to detach from my H and to "drop the rope" I have heard that so many times on here, but how does one go about it?
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤
