well, it seems (and i stress the word seems) that as i move further away from my husband, he seems kinder and wants more of my attention...
this has happened before, as i have been here before
but this months ago, he had said that he is "committed to divorce" and that "he hopes i find someone to adore me as he believes i deserve" - but it "could not be him"
we have not spoke of our relationship in months
we are still living separately, tho spent some nights in the same house when we were on the west coast (surprise to me, as when i got there i thought he would go on to his brothers house)
he talked last night about purchasing some things for "our house" on the west coast - a house that he is also talking about selling or renting out
point of journaling being: a month or so ago, i might have read into these things with some hope in my heart. now i realize it is just part of his confusion and does not have to mean anything and i just need to go along as if my life will continue without him
i guess it's just a bit sad that i don't really care anymore - i am slowly moving on
still concerned for my boy, of course, but i know that no matter what the outcome, i am going to be great
