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Journalling ...

My m-i-l has altzheimers and it seems to be worsening ... she got lost the other day and fortunately, someone was kind enough to drive her back to the care centre. She did remember her address, thank goodness. My b-i-l sent an email to all the brothers to let them know of the situation. They all live in different countries, and this b-i-l is the only one who lives close to my m-i-l, so he takes care of her wrt business, etc. We live a continent an ocean away, plus another continent. She will need a carer to come in and take her for walks, and help her with hygiene issues, etc. I told my H, that of course we must help, since her capital doesn't generate enough to cover everything. I really love my m-i-l, so I would want to do all I can to make sure she gets the proper care.

I wonder how this is going to affect my H. He usually bottles thing up inside him, and I guess it all came out in his MLC. I know his mother's health is one of the causes of his depression. He told me so, unless he was just making an excuse for his behaviour.

more journalling ...

H was supposed to be back home on Saturday, but just informed me via email, that he will only be coming back on Tuesday. Issues with the project, apparently. I wonder if suspected OW will be there. 'Eh, I won't wonder too long.

I'm feeling discouraged this morning ... melancholy ... don't know what to do with myself. I don't feel needed, or wanted here. I miss my grandkids.

Being ((((hugs)))



The empty nest syndrome is hard to deal with under the best of circumstances....It sure would be easier with a loving H by our side...when they abandon us as well...very difficult to re-define yourself and find a new "purpose" in life...but we will figure it out...right?

What would make Being happy?

What would make me happy is to live close to at least one group of grandchildren. They grow up so fast, and I'm missing it all. I think it's time to move back to the cold city on the other side of the Rocky's. I have friends there, nieces, and my D23 and her 3 children. I'm giving it a lot of thought though, because I do like the island.

I hate feeling sorry for myself, but I'll give myself permission for today, then tomorrow I will go and DO something. I wish the strike at uni was over, so that I can get on with my course. D18 not happy either since she has 6 classes.

Thanks for the hugs, Mila.

BM, I found that when I was restless and wanting to do something it worked best to do nothing.

You're H has made a few pleasant surprises in your favor, maybe just being still is something to think about.

Along with being still, how about some physical activity? Do you get a chance to get out and burn some energy?

I understand the cost of distance from the kids and grandkids. It's an emotional cost that can never be recovered. When might they be old enough to travel to visit you?

Hi WCW! Yeah, I take the dog for a walk when the sun is shining. Not a lot of activity, is it.

My H has made some positive steps, but he does this every anniversary, then retreats into his cave again. I still don't know where I stand, and it makes me want to just move on. He's hardly here anyway, and I get lonely. I can go for days by myself if I have writing to do, but I'm stuck at the end of my one story. So, I have lifted my head from the computer, and noticed no-one is here, I have nowhere to go, and my R is still stuck just as much as my story.

I think I will write some poetry on being stuck.

My oldest grandchild is 12 years old, and I broached the idea to my D30 about her coming to us soon, perhaps for a summer. She said, maybe when she's 14. They are in Germany, so she would have to travel far.

I am hoping to go to visit my D23 over Easter.

Ok, so if it's a pattern then how can you change it?

How about asking to travel with him?

It would be cool to have your Gdaughter visit, maybe her mom will approve sooner.....

I woke up thinking about your sitch!! Playing devil's advocate to WCW - whose husband has emerged, some get stuck, and I am not sure we are required to just sit there in a non functional relationship. I think there is a world of difference between patience and inertia, although it isn't always possible to see the difference until later. But only you can know the best course of action.

Do you honestly think that staying as you are will change anything [I guess I am echoing WCW from the other side] Maybe you need to move on and see if your h catches up. Not good dbing I know.