Thanks..guys and gals..no KAW I am really busy and feeling stressed..this new computer thing at work is holding us up on our daily work...and since I have grasped it better than a few others, I am the one they ask for help...have to go in this weekend to try and catch up...plus I do a side thing of selling cookies at this time of year and have 100 dozen for next week.....but if these are the worst things to deal with we would all be lucky...
H called me at work the other day for nothing real important..maybe small talk about some cookie order, but he has not done that for a long time..actually called me a second time and appologized for bothering me again..I said no problem..there is a couple from our church who are a little "slow", and he has kinda taken them under his wing..the wife comes to our dinners on Wed. nights, but only if my h is there to sit with her, well he was not going to be there, so he asked if i would be willing to help her find someone to sit with..I said sure..I did go and sit with her...so h felt comfortable enough to ask me to do that..he could have asked any number of people there to do that..so I feel good.
I am giving him our queen bed this weekend..it seems kinda sad to me..but I will survive..I ask myself if it is hard to give the bed up, what the he** am I going to do if a d is the ultimate end to all this..guess jsut take each step along the way/and I thought I was strong enough for anything.
Did get good news on mammogram..so am going to call h and share it with him, since he seemed concerned for me..and reassured me that it probably would be ok.
KAW..for some reason I could not reply to your post just now..thank you for the greetings..and caring!! How were things with your family? Sounds like CAW is coming around..slowly..thats good news, the waiting and patience is all worth it.
My h came over for Christmas, I really did not think this year he would give me anything..after he came in I looked under tree and saw nothing..of course my heart was a little let down, but I knew I had to accept that he is trying to break away. Then as my dd gave us our gifts there was a tiny box...with a beautiful silver necklace with hearts on it(I had spotted it shopping with dd, so I am sure she actually went and got it for him)..but it made me almost cry..I looked at h and said "you got this for me?", he just laughed and said "I didn't do any shopping"..I put it on and have not taken it off...
Do I still believe in miracles..do I still hold onto hope..you bet......although I think h still beleives d is our only way to "get on" with our lives.
I did have an awful confrontation with my sister on Tues..the things she said about me, and h were almost unfogivable...she says the whole community is talking about what he has "done" to me LOL....I tried to convince her there was no one else for him..of course you know when people talk. that's all someone can believe. I was not going to tell h about phone call, but dd had told him I had this call, so when he called and asked aboout it, I spilled it all out..told him sister said he has a girlfriend..that she and others had seen him with someone..he laughed and said "I wonder which one they saw me with"..I was kinda shocked and said with out thinking"Is there more than one" Then I said "I am just kidding"..I know the women he has gone out to lunch or for a drink..but you see people are so blinded that they think a s person is having an a just because they are out with the opposite sex, and I am so sick of it......the sad thing is between the call with my sister and talking to h, I was almost convinced... again..that he was probably lieing to me, and I really am blind to the whole game...I was have contemplating calling him and telling him to just get the damn d filed..people have a way of playing with your emotions and mind.
So...I am able to better handle these past feelings of doubt....
Hope everyone here can find peace in their hearts for the new year ahead...we are all stronger for what we have endured this past year. I know I would not be where I am today had it not been for all the friends here.
Hoping.....just wanted to comment on your last post and how true it is...certain things said or whatever can just make you doubt them all over again. I catch myself doing that at times...wondering who the female voice is that I can hear through the cell.....he always tells me, but I still wonder and it makes me doubt....good luck to you...I hope it works out.
In your shoes, it must be soooo rough...and then to have admitted ff's seen out with your H...rumours...talk.
All CRAP you do NOT need! No wonder gossip is considered pretty much a sin.
I know that the blips of doubt DO linger, ladies. I had a stomach dropping one just last night...hours after receiving a wonderful letter of sorrow, reassurance and love from CJ.
Shiny...I am not sure how to take your response..or maybe I really am blind... I truly beleive him and that there is no other woman...yes a year or so again the r with the coworker/ff did go beyond friendship, but the fact that he goes out now means nothing..it makes me mad that supposedly people are ASSuming these things about him..but then that's reality..I feel such peace about things, that it scares me that I am living in a dream world..I don't know what the next months hold..h may very well mention again about d, and if that really is what he feels like he needs for closure, I am not going to fight him...I want us to be friends...no matter what..especially for our kids sakes..I don't feel anger towards him..I can't make him love me again..I can only do the best for me..make the changes and keep them..for me. So many of you may be saying.."she is in another world"..I hope it is the new me..the strong me..coming out. I want this m to surive or at least start over, and I hope I don't sound like I am giving up..I just need go on with life..I pray each day that God will help h find what he needs to be happy, if it includes me again..that would be great..
Hi Sue, For the first time ever, it looks like my thread locked up over the Holidays. So I'm pondering starting another one. There doesn't seem to be much of a need right now ... all seems to be going along pretty good now. Had a very nice Christmas. I been lurking a bit here for the last couple of days ... trying to catch up but there's becoming too much activity for me to keep up.
Sounds like you had a nice Christmas ... glad to hear it. I'll keep checking in here Sue ...
What with all the threads started by other's on the forum it's getting a bit confusing, plus if you DON't, I will be forced to start a new thread FOR you.
That would make 4 threads with the shinybear handle...see what I mean?
