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I feel so alone. I can't discuss this with anyone.

I even googled OW and of course she is everywhere. Doing all of these groovy things. She is a marathon runner, personal trainer, highly educated, environmentalist, photographer, author, I mean come on! How can I ever compete? Honestly, she's not that cute! A couple years younger (early 40's)...

She's never had to raise a family (she has no kids) while working full-time, be a partner with her hustband in a business and try to stay sexy, cute, interesting and positive all at the same time.

Since H and D are out of town looking at colleges, I'm headed to the mall to try to find a cute outfit for when I pick them up tomorrow. Since H hasn't admitted his A, I am so torn about how to proceed. In my heart I know he does love me, and he is always so kind and always a gentleman (to my face). I wonder if he views me more as a "mother figure" than his wife? He definitely has a secretive, quiet side that I worry about. In fact, when he asked me to marry him 24 years ago, he forgot to mention (and it never came up while we were dating) that he had been married before. Only after I asked him the next day "have you ever been engaged before", did he tell me the story!

Thanks for listening.......