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you are making a choice to save your marriage and that is a hard one
you are a strong, beautiful woman and when it and if it becomes too much
you will be ready to move on and he will be left with the hard nights

I did it...I got through my break without sending him a text about dinner. Usually (always) send him a text asking if he will be home for dinner. He either says yes or late. The last two nights were "late" I know where he was, or at least I have no reason to believe he lied. Now, if I can get through lunch it will be a mircle.

Ok I DID IT...Got through an entire work day without some sending a text. I am a little nervous about going home and what I might or might not find. My plan is to go home make dinner and not ask what time he will be home.

today...I have the same goal. No text message about trival junk. Yesterday was hard. He got home shortly after I did with his new work truck. He told me to sit in the drivers seat so I could see how much smaller it was.Good or bad??? Then he left with my nephew to go to a friend's house to work on dirt bikes. I feel asleep on the couch when he got home. I didn't even hear him come in. Eventually I did and got up. He said that I didn't have to leave. Good???? so, I didn't. Eventually woke up at 3am and went up stairs while he slept in the chair. Tonight our Favorite show is on..Breaking Bad, so we will see how that goes.

I'm having a horriable day. I can't seem to get my thoughts together. It has been 6 weeks and it seems like years...I don't know what else I can do..

I need someone to talk me off the cliff....I "Want" to stand up and scream. I want to tell him if he doesn't want to be married FINE....MOVE...OUT. I want to scream make up your mind, I'm not running a hotel nor am a pet sitter to two aging dogs (his way before marriage) and I don't run a storage unit! Now, I just really want him to realize what he will be loosing...I don't know who is the bigger idiot, him or me. DB seems to have gone out the window.

I really need some help and guidance please

Stop.
Breathe! In through your mouth, fill your lungs, let it out slowly through your nose.
Feel the air going in and out of your lungs. Do this until you feel calm and your shoulders are not up around your ears.

What will telling him all this do? Draw him near or push him away?
Will it make you feel better or worse?
What is driving your anger? Is it HIS actions? Or is it how you feel about you?

You feel disrespected, taken advantage of.

Is the message in behind that anger a whole lot of hurt? Is that hurt a message that you are not worthy in some way?

I don't know.... I feel so alone in this tiny house. I feel that he is pulling away more everyday because I am DB, using all the rule or the ones that I can live with. We were doing much better before he went on his trip...now we are back to being roommates instead of friends that actually did stuff together.

This is a really hard lesson to learn VS2D. I am still learning it!

You cannot control him or his behaviour. You can only control your own.

A situation arises, it triggers a thought process - our thoughts drive our feelings, and our feelings drive our actions.

Now you can let your feelings of the moment drive your actions or you can conciously CHOOSE to behave otherwise.

Your interpretation and perception of him pulling away may not be accurate. Yes they are your perceptions...seen through dirty glass with obstacles in the way.
If someone else were to look, they might see something else.

I understand you feel isolated, alone.
Right now, what can you do to feel better about the situation you're in? What would be a way to love yourself, appreciated yourself, be kind to yourself?