my h is an island my h shows no emotion other than indifference or frustration. my h is lost my h is burried my h is not a person...and I am not the only one who see's/ feels it...he blames it on his business...probably in some ways blames it on me...I don't know my h and I'm tired of trying to get to know him. I feel more connection to strangers in the stores than I do with the man who lives in my home. what the hell am I doing?
I for one am glad your sticking around LL. I'm going through a frustrating, mistrusting time myself, and I think we can help each other. I think your justified about getting your nightie in a knot over H not being ther for your S. But now, what are ya gonna do with it? I know it's hard to let go of that kind of stuff, and it does not sound as though your H is open to discussion on it, so it's good you come here to vent. What would happen if you DID try to talk to him?? Rachael
no point in trying to talk to him about it...it would only end up in another fight...he appologized to son as soon as he arived home and that's enough for me.
now of course h is being distant with me but to be honest I think I'm starting to prefer it that way.
Quote: That can't be good. Hopefully the distance thing won't last long. Is he the type to hold a grudge a long time? How are you acting towards him? Rachael
I guess in a sense that "argument" is just another one put in the books and left there...in the past I would have tried to bring it up to find some resolution to it but would end up more aggrivated. I've chosen to let it go, cause after all h did compassionately appologize to son and that's what it was all about...my holding a grudge over it would imply it was something about me and not s.
so h broke his silence by sharing with me his gripes over an issue he had this am.
as much as I don't like to hear the negatives of his day I do appreciate him sharing them with me as it reminds me that he is after all a human.
I also let him know that as silly as it sounds I like to hear that people can get under his skin.
he understood and that was that.
I have class tonight and he offered to let me take his truck cause mine still doesn't have heat.
he scheduled that to get taken care of on thursday...maybe he'll get the darn thing cleaned for me too.
oh and I let him know that I had been outside trying to figure out how to hang the christmas lights..he said...maybe that's something we can do together on saturday.
so no this is not a ok LL's in la la land again..it simply means this little rif has passed.
next issue you'll be hearing LL complain about...it's been over a week since our last interlude...ya ya shiny I know I shouldn't complain about only a week..but c'mon now! LL
Given my wordiness...and my tendancy to get distracted at work and not finish a post in a timely fashion...I'm always reluctant to whip off a post to you for fear that by the time I hit "OK" the moment will be LONG past....just kidding (sort of).
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
