Im hoping and praying the business meeting goes well...the woman stopped in here a little while ago...she is excited about the opportunities for me more than for her I think. Hoping this is a good thing.
H is quiet today. HE called this morning and talked to the kids, and me. All we talked about was the kids. I believe the OW was with him, so he kept it about the kids, which it should be.
Ive sat here and reread alot of the posts from everyone. I find myself at times, completely NOT caring about the OW and my H....but then find my mind going right back to my H.
Im hoping this business thing goes well. I think it will be a good distraction from him. Especially since I will NOT be sharing any info about it with my H.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Im kinda bummed about tonight....nothing to do...H will be picking up the kids a little bit late, because he has a function he was invited to (im sure he is only going because OW is because he has NEVER done things at work like that....which I think is stupid that he accepted since he knew he had the kids to get...but of course he just assumed I wouldnt have a problem with it...I just told him it was fine, that I wouldnt be going anywhere till 7, that if he werent there by then that the kids would be ok waiting there for him. Then he replyed ok, then he said "I guess you have plans lol". I just replyed "yes, I do". THen he said "ok" then a few minutes later he said "OOOOKKKKKK". Like he was trying to get some reaction out of me. I just said nothing. Then a few minutes after that i get a text that said "was it suppose to". I had no idea what that meant so I just said "What?". he came back with "nothing". Now Im wondering how this evening will go when he comes to get the kids. I will be dressed up and ready to go when he gets there, although I have no where to go, but he dont know that.
Anyway....I have to find something to do tonight. Thinking about calling up this guy who wants to go out with me, and just going out as friends to see a movie or something....idk, ugh!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Kissak - I have learned through out this that going to the movies by myself is fun....see what you want, munch on what you want, sit where you want lol....try it you may like it ...but dress like you were going out for a date...high heals and all...it will make you feel good and it will make H wonder...
Or call your male friend...why not
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I just may call him...will have to wait till later though. He works till 4. I know this guy has his daughter the same weekend I have my kids, so we are on the same schedule as far as kids....so he may be doing nothing tonight
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
I love that you are dressing up to make it look like you are going somewhere...PERFECT!! I have heard others who have done this and it is great! Apparently you not responding to his texts with info about your evening to to him...they never cease to amaze me!! Hang in there, be non-chalant when he picks up the kids, act as if you are in a rush to get to your "date" and head out right behind him as he pulls out with the kids!! You go girl, you can do this!!
A
Me-40 XH-44 T-21 M-18 Div-19 mo. D-18,S-15,D-11 Bomb-7/07 EA,PA Mvd out-9/07-to give me space mvd back-12/07 mvd out-7/08 back with OW since 2/08 OW broke it off-1/10 in and out of tunnel and our life since!!
Thanks A Im sure he will be very curious to where I am going and who with....I have gone through this before with him. But really, I dont really care what he thinks....it doesnt matter. Although I do hope it bother's him ALLLLL NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
H just sent me a text "can you pick up chek for me?" (from the place he works part time that is close by me. He wont be back in area in time to get. I just replyed yes. He depends on me so much. But what can I say? If I said no, he would get mad and then be vengeful about it. Its easier to keep the peace and just pick it up for him. BUT STILL!!! Come on, he has an exOW there that would probably gladly get it for him!! One of his nice way much older women he had a fling with....this woman is like in her 50's!!!! yuck!!!!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
But really, I dont really care what he thinks....it doesnt matter. Although I do hope it bother's him ALLLLL NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL! No, if your hoping it bothers him, then you still care. He's still renting plenty of space in your head. Give it time, and more importantly, space.
You'll get to that point, but don't use your anger as a shortcut to get there. Get there because YOU WANT BETTER.
Dress up for you, not for a reaction. I hope like hell you get out and have fun tonight. More importantly get him out of your head. There will come a day where he will no longer cloud your vision and consume your thoughts and THAT is a wonderful thing when it happens.
As far as asking your friend to join you, that's completely your call. Just please think of him. I'm not really familiar with who he is but if he is interested in you for more than just a friendship, I question your availabilty at this time.
Originally Posted By: kissak
H just sent me a text "can you pick up chek for me?" (from the place he works part time that is close by me. He wont be back in area in time to get. I just replyed yes. He depends on me so much. But what can I say? If I said no, he would get mad and then be vengeful about it. Its easier to keep the peace and just pick it up for him. BUT STILL!!! Come on, he has an exOW there that would probably gladly get it for him!! One of his nice way much older women he had a fling with....this woman is like in her 50's!!!! yuck!!!!
Ummm NO. It's real easy, try it. Noooo. Or an "I'm really busy right now" would probably do.
Vengeful? Like how? DO NOT FEAR HIM. Kissak, I have a son whos 3 and a daughter whos 6 so I now you can't avoid him completely, but you do have the ability to maintain a healthy distance from him now that he's gone.
What are you afraid he'll do? Don't get me wrong, if you enjoy the way things are, and you enjoy helping him, then by all means please continue to do so.
I'm not trying to be a downer or hassle you in anyway and I'm sorry if it comes across like it. I still see a whole lot of back and forth on your part. Give it time and stay centered and focused on you.
Take care, I hope you make this weekend a wonderful one.
