We are going to MC, but it doesn’t really seem to be working for me. He has stopped yelling, but he is still taking shots, and still saying he is just kidding, but I know deep down that he isn’t kidding. The MC told us to go through the motions for a couple of months and if that doesn’t work then we need to split up.
Welcome Allie! You've come to a good place. I can sense how much pain you are in and how desparate you must feel. I think you've done a tremendous thing to reach out for help before giving in to the urge to run away. I think you must be very strong.
I'd like to respectfully suggest that you and your H seriously consider finding another MC immediately. The advice you have been given to 'fake it for awhile and split up if it doesn't work' is borderline negligent. You might consider talking to a DB coach right away to make a new game plan. I also suggest you get yourself a copy of DR and/or DB right away. Perhaps see if your H will read it with you. Even if you decide not to go that route, I urge you to seek out better advice. Coming here is a great step but following the path your MC has laid out seems to be inviting disaster to me.
