Why? It's just like the new one. No distance traveled. You are still in the same place, throwing the same pity party and blaming the same people. It's still someone else's fault - you can't help how you were raised - pms - H is a mama's boy - today I'm good with great abs - today I'm a loser who is stuck - my inlaws ruined my M - they called me a gold digger....
You have been given some of the BEST advice and direction I've ever read on this board. By name ~ 25! Forrest! Coach! And you are right where you started. Literally. Same thread-different name. Then you sought out AllenA...Puppy...now Robx. No change. Same song, different verse.
Plan A. Plan B. This list. That list. Squash. Equities trading. Cupcakes. Random acts of happiness. No progress. You still come back to the same same same story.
You are in the same building as your STBX. You are building in the same neighborhood as STBX. You don't want to be like your sisters and you judge their lives ("SAHM who let themselves go"). Come here, come here, come here...oh get away, get away, get away! You are one post in a close loving family, and the next throwing stones. One post, H has carved the deepest hurts in your heart ever...and yet you choose to be in his neighborhood association.
And when someone gives you a dose of truth, you duck and cover in a "journaling" post. I said it before and I will write it just one more time...grow upl Your immature behavior may have contributed to the undoing of your marriage. Correct. Grow. Learn from your mistakes (when you admit them). Know that sometimes the people in your life will deal crap to you. You can choose to live in the crap, or rise above it and move on.
Your choice.
But if you are going to keep making the same choise, give up on gathering advice. You are wasting people's time.
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Me45 H46 T25 M22 S21 & 19 D13 Separated and filed 8/08 Moved home 11/08
