Your latest post shows your strength and is what has inspired me since following your thread. I am glad to see you are back to your fighting spirit that I find so refreshing about you with all the crap you have endured with your H.
Keep going strong for you and your kids! If you are down, get back up and start again.
(((hugs)))
ME-41 W-33 M-8 D-8 S-4 D 5/17/2010 www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1961097#Post1961097
LSG - I have to say I'm flattered that you are impressed with me but I must tell you I don't feel all that proud of myself. I have a lot of bad days where the sadness and despair overpower me. I know it's a process but still you give me a little too much credit.
Thank you for always coming by and voicing your positive and uplifting thoughts.
Luv
M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
Babydoll - thank you for your support. It's been a battle staying positive and being there for the kids. Sometimes I want to run away from all of this but then I'd be no different than my former husband. I never want to be like him.
Today is going to be a very nice day. My best friend is getting married today and it is going to be fun. We are staying in a hotel because it's an hour from home. The kids are complaining they have to wear dress shoes but they will have fun.
I am going to make the most of today - and tomorrow - because when Tuesday comes it's back to work and stress. I will be under a lot of pressure from all this attorney BS and paperwork.
Luv ya
M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
luv, Just found your new thread. I am sorry you finally had to stand and take action, but proud that you did.
You may not see your strength at times and I know more often than not the pain and anger overwhelms, but we see that strength, Mama Bear. We've watched it grow.
Stay strong.
I hope you had a friggin' blast at the wedding!
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
Good morning friends. Yes I had a great time at my best friend's wedding. I even had two guys at the end of the night (one knocking at my door) and one texting me to come have fun with them....literally at the same time. I was thinking of all of us...how we all got here and how dare these married men try and hook up with me. I shook my head and laughed and thought of you guys...too funny. BUT hey way to tempt a girl who hasn't had sex in 3 months LOL
On a serious note I have a couple of fun days left here and there before hell breaks loose again. I was having a nice lunch the other day and the X text me. He hasn't text me in months! about D18 running up the cell phone bill. He wanted to know if I knew anything about it - I replied, "I can't see the bill" duh cuz your dumba** blocked me out remember?
Anyway, there is so much to tell about what's been going on but I don't want to bore you guys to death. I'm gong to journal a lot more now because I have some stressful times ahead - wait - I'm supposed to be positive right?
Heres something interesting...yesterday was the FIRST day I felt icky feelings towards my ex husband - usually I feel sad and I miss him well...I was thinking about everything yesterday I am free of him! No more lies and no more watching over his drinking and bad habits!
Keep hanging around guys I'm not done here.
Luv you!!!
Luv
Last edited by luvless; 06/16/1004:26 PM.
M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10