Is your name still apt, by the way? Are you still confused? I guess THEY are confused and confusing, no? LOL.
I understand how you could be brought to your knees by what happened. That's the thing about these sitches. Something pops up at sometime to knock you off kilter.
Two things I will leave with you which I hope strengthen you:
1. "And Moses said to the people, Fear ye not,stand still and see the salvation of the Lord , which he will show you today: for the Egyptians whom you have seen today, ye shalL see them again no more for ever." EXODUS 14:13
You have lived to see the dreaded day where he introduced OW to his family and friends. And you have lived to tell it. And that day no longer has to be feared because you have lived it and conquered that demon. You don't have to see that "Egytian" again.
2. "Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's." CHRONICLES 20:15
I find those two verses very comforting and hope they help you too.
How weird is it to celebrate a holiday with your H's son and his wife's family without your H? I am so thankful that my SS and my DIL's family have been so supportive to me and my kids during all of this craziness from H/
I really enjoyed myself tonight. I did think of H tonight, when SS said something that sounded just like H and when the fireworks were going off and the grandkids were oohing and ahhing and wondered what H was doing and felt bad that he was missing out on that!
M48 H53 M16 T18 S16 D13 SS30 H drops bomb PA/8-30-09 H leaves 12-30-09 D filed by H 2-10 H asks to come home 4-11 Piecing
Love the name change!!! I have a name as "hopingwaiting" on another forum and wish I could change it but it won't let me!
Sorry, don't know how to make the name change.
As for your D's b-day...glad to hear her dad came through to spend some time with her.
I am sure it would be weird to spend time with your stepkids without your H but it certainly shows how much they love you and want to keep you in their lives!
me,34 exH,34 S,16 months S:3/31/09-left for OW started DBing 10/09 d final: sometime 10/10 current: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2022856&page=1 met in 2004