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(((eric))) What I am losing out on with my kids causes me the most pain too. They are so young and so much can happen/change from one day to another .... God I love them. This hurts.

PEI

Hey Eric,

Sorry that it's painful right now.

You didn't actually send that to her did you?

Honesty is a real ball buster Eric. And yet, without it, it's all just a facade, no substance.


I remember being in the place you wrote that post from. It hurts like hell, but somehow it's a cleansing hurt. It's a hurt that you can move forward from and somehow be walking better than you were before.


We don't invest time and effort in worrying about things outside our control. And we do not borrow trouble from tomorrow, particularly when there is enough to deal with today. Your children remain your children. Be a man and father of integrity and do what you must to remain a part of their life. Then let the chips fall where they may.


Answer the questions inside with thoughtful action. When doubt creeps in, immerse yourself in something that gives you a sense of security and strength.


We survive this chaotic time by finding our core and taking up residence there. It sounds like you are finding that place. We can't remove the undesireables completely - the doubt, the fear, the anger, the hurt. But in our core, at that place where we acknowledge who we are and how we are made, we can deal with those things from a position of strength. Get comfortable with who you are, move in the direction of being better than what you were yesterday.


You will survive and thrive.


Blessings,

Bill

PEI – I am so sorry that you feel the loss of your children. As I am beginning to understand and accept – I will always be there dad AND YOU PEI…will always be MOMMY to them. Our kids will probably marry one day…guess what? (FTR this may not be the politically correct thing to say on this board) a wife and a husband can be replaced – hence you can have more than one BUT – our kids will ONLY have ONE MOM and DAD. That PEI is you and I…..this is what we hold on to…this is why we protect them…this is why….NOT MATTER What we need to KNOW that they will always love us regardless of who we are MARRIED to. My heart goes out to you.

Jack – You should know me better than that….the old Eric would have mail it – the new one..well….certain things I will keep to myself. Ya can’t talk your way out of something that you acted your way into.

Bill – As always you know just the right thing to say at the right time. I have read most of your posts so i know you know how I feel. I know. Thank you for your words. If you ever wonder if you should still come to these boards. Know this my friend, I don’t know you or many of the other posters here BUT I want you to know, that you and a few others kept me alive in this crisis and for that I will forever be grateful. Thank you.

Pandora – thank you for your hugs. Thank you.

Mila – I keep making you cry…hell I suppose to try and make you laugh or smile. Okay here is my attempt at that…

A middle management executive has to take on some sport, by his doctor's orders, so he decides to play tennis. After a couple of weeks his secretary asks him how he's doing. "It's going fine, " the manager says. "When I'm on the court and I see the ball speeding towards me, my brain immediately says, 'To the corner! Back hand! To the net! Smash! Go back!'" "Really? What happens then?" the secretary asks. "Then my body says, 'Who? Me? You must be kidding!'"

I know that you like tennis so I found a tennis joke – hopefully it will put a little smile on your face. I need to catch up on your thread but as you can imagine I have been a little tied up with the kids. On a serious note, thank you for your words. You are a class act.

Cat – all I can say…is…you know…you know….

Mach – thank you for your post. BTW…I still have the pink tutu if you interested 

Brooklyn – thank you, thank you cause you always bring a certain....well let’s just say…gentleness with your insight.

Grit – I’ve yank the F’er out…pulled it right out…thanks man. By the way if Mach is not interested in the tutu are you – LMAO….

Shelbel – I know that you are going thru your own hell so thank you for posting to me.

All

I still hurt but I know I will be okay. The journey that I am still on and will forever be on is one that I had to take. In a weird way I thank my wife for this.

I will survive….WHY?

Cause I choose to.

Eric - good to see you back

And don't worry about me crying...what can I say...I'm an emotional girl...especially these days. But I like a good laugh better...so thank you that joke

That's the attitude we need

((((hugs))))

If you really think I am gonna wear that rib stained, windblown, tutu....you are out of your mind dude....


Not once,have I read that you did laundry.....




Give it to Grit....He'll wear anything....

YOU are a class act Eric...

((Eric))

I need this tattooed somewhere.


I'm happy to see this attitude, Eric. I think you're doing well. Just keep remembering to let the lawyers settle this out from now on. You can't talk to here, even trying to any more will just make you look like something I don't think you are.

I hope you have a really good day.


I'm getting better at getting through this "personal hell" of mine. The facade cracked & the light is now shining on the truth of what was happening in my M. I was in denial--I tried to make everything work regardless of whether or not it should have.

I'm off to play in the yard---the weeds are as tall as my kids. lol

Eric,
Hope you are doing better today.

I have a rough day every now and then. Hopefully as time goes on they will be fewer and farther between for you. I know I still have moments but I now know they will pass and there is happiness on the other side.

You better believe it.

I also see that you decided to try my trick in posting.

Maybe someday I will tell you how I know THAT.

LOL.

Have a good day my boneheaded friend.