Well, I am going to file my response today to my W petition. I am very anxious about it for some reason. I guess it will be one step closer to us being divorced. I feel so bad for our two kids. It will just devastate them more. She has no idea what it will do to them when I are finally living separately.
I am so sad for them more than me. My parents have been married for 50 years this year, and I could not imagine how I would feel if they would have been divorced. Truly a sad day I was given no choice but to respond.
I hope to keep up my positive attitude about this.
I do have another job interview tomorrow, and multiple calls for other jobs too.
I will need the independence to care for my children without her. I have to do it. I must do it! I need all the strength I can have to do this. I have to move forward without her in my life!
I feel some feelings about what is happening, but I need to stop those feeling now for my kids sake.
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W and I had an argument last night, and I told her that I am done with her, and I am sick of her treating me like sh!t. I finally spoke up and told her that I am don't want to be with her anymore, and I have no respect for her. I told her that is is nothing more than a common cheater and liar.
Again it felt good to say. I believe I have nothing at this point to lose.
Well tonight she came home, and I just ignored her like she is not even there and spend time with the kids. I do not even really acknowledge her presence.
She actually asked me if I wanted something at McDonalds, and I declined politely. It was amazing that she even asked me.
I started paperwork with my attorney, and it is going great, and I will have it sent to W in the next couple of days. My attorney is so fantastic. I am glad I have her. I am at ease, and she makes me feel so good. It is just different from the other attornies I have spoke with. I go back tomorrow to catch up on the paperwork and make sure it is on time. I am so relieved to have her.
Well tomorrow I have another interview with the same company for a different position. It is going so well there. I am so excited about it. I hope to have a job very soon.
Wish me luck!!!
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I went to my interview today at the same company my W works at. I did not tell her I had an interview there. It is in a different building, so I thought the chances of me running into her were very slim. I did see her walking up to the building. She stopped to talk to someone, so I went to the resteroom, so she would not see me. I was worried she would know I was there. I dodged that bullet. It got my adrenaline pumping for the interview. It was my best interview yet. I feel very confident that I will get the job.
I meet with my attorney today. I always tired thinking about it.
So far, today is going well. I hope to keep it that way.
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I believe I did a great job today. I was so worried that W would see me, but she is preoccupied with her self that she did not even notice I was there.
I am so glad about today.
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I did see her walking up to the building. She stopped to talk to someone, so I went to the resteroom, so she would not see me. I was worried she would know I was there.
Why are you afraid of her? This is not the strength and confidence you need to convey. This was a opportunity to shine. Be aware and be on.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.