As long as you were just venting, that's fine, but imagine how it looked to say those things about how God wasn't there for you, you were questioning your faith, and then that you took sleeping pills and alcohol... maybe to you it meant something else, but it panicked us a lot.
At least you know that yes, people do care. We don't know you but we do care about you.
I am someone who was never allowed to show emotion and feelings were never acknowledged or discussed when I was growing up. I had not a clue when I found this board what the body and emotional connection was in people in general, let alone in myself. Quotes like the one you posted helps me to learn exactly what I've been missing all these years in myself (but in a good "now I can be different" way!).
You and I have had recent experiences that show us there are people on here that care very deeply about us. It is a gift I know I treasure daily.
That quote is now in my book of important ones to reread.
(((DU)))
~ This Diamond now SHINES!! ;-p ~
My Sitch in MLC - http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Main=45253&Number=1901148#
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
We still have him in our memory the way he was, I wonder what he would look like now. BTW my H knows that I love the guy, so last time he went to Paris he went to the cemetery and took a picture of Jim's grave for me. Pretty morbid, but he was already in MLC.
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
Well, I have alienated my family and friends over the last couple of days because I did not want to listen to what they have to say. I know they care but unfortunately, they don't know how to help. I wanted them to listen, but they continue to criticize, saying it has been 7 months since I have been feeling this way and that I must give it all up, forgot about and move one, others say I need to find a "santified church"; and still others says that I need to be around children who will bring a smile to my face. Maybe the latter is true, a sense of calmness comes over me when I am with my friend's children.
I did not mean to alienate my friends and one very good friend in particular. He was always there for me and I shut down and wanted to give up on myself because this feeling of pain and despair was greater than anything I ever wanted to experience. I need to give myself time, the same time my friend needs to also heal.
I guess it time the LBS of these MLC aliens will begin to feel whole again and finally be able to move on. However, some days are extremely difficult.
Thank you for your friendship and support. I hope you each have a better day than yesterday.
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
We don't know you but we do care about you.