It was a mellow day. I didn't get to see my movie because my daughter decided she wanted to go with friends so....my schedule changed a bit. I got to visit my mom which was nice.
I got to spend some quality time with my younger son. I have felt pretty empty inside these last couple days so spending time with my fam makes me feel safe.
I'm relaxing with my kids right now...we're all sitting here in the family room - I'm taking them to church in the morning. I've been feeling like I lost 22 yrs of my life but I look at them and think - how can they not be worth it?
Luv
M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
It's eerie how similar our stories are luvless. You're a few years older than we.
I often wonder why they still do this crap, and in fact that was the tone of my first confrontation with my own wife last October.
"You are FORTY YEARS OLD and MARRIED, and you're still acting like a teenager, chasing men at the bar... grow up!"
I always thought she'd settle down long before she reached this point, but she's just putting the pedal down and going as fast as can be. Do you find that's the case in your marriage also?
As someone else pointed out, divorce shouldn't be about emotion. I don't want to look back and find myself motivated by anger or hopelessness or revenge when I contemplate my divorce. I want to be calm and assured and know it's really what I want. I expect to get there soon, but I'm not there yet. I also want to know that I gave her every chance, and I think I can say this already.
M:40 W:40 2 teenagers ILYBNILWY: 09 January 2010 soon to be walking away my situation
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."