Well, guys you should have seen my 4 year old singing at the top of her lungs 'I don't need you any moreeee' and dancing 'Believe' in front of her Daddy! Made him repeat it a hundred times too...
Believe ( Cher )
No matter how hard I try You keep pushing me aside And I can't break through There's no talking to you It's so sad that you're leaving It takes time to believe it But after all is said and done You're gonna be the lonely one
Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough
What am I supposed to do? Sit around and wait for you? Well I can't do that And there's no turning back I need time to move on I need love to feel strong 'Cause I've got time to think it through And maybe I'm too good for you
Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough
Well I know that I'll get through this 'Cause I know that I am strong I don't need you anymore I don't need you anymore I don't need you anymore No, I don't need you anymore
Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough
Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough Do you believe in life after love? I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough
Paid him back for the 6 months separation IMHO
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
Yesterday had trip out of town to my alma mater for recruiting purposes. Our firms tries to send alums so that there is a common bond between recruiter and student. I am 41 and it has been exactly 20 yrs since I graduated. Just looking at the college students made me feel so old. I swear, it was just yesterday that I was in their shoes. At the banquet, some of the grad students were talking about how they got engaged and I had to just bite my tongue to keep from saying "JUst wait until 15 yrs goes by and one of you drops the bomb....enjoy this bliss while you can...." I felt so darn cynical.
Anyway, after seeing those college girls, decided I needed to join a gym and get a face lift if this is what I am competing with if H and I don't work out.
Was down today as hadn't heard from H. He had been emailing me as of late and nothing yesterday or today. He called a few minutes ago and said something along the lines of "so how come you aren't emailing me...." Once again, wanted to scream "H, I am in the process of DB'ing, and I cannot under any circumstances initiate email with you as you would view me as pursuing!!!!!!....i don't remember exactly what I said, just kinda passed over it and made light of it.
I did tell him I thought I needed to join a gym after seeing the college gals, and he said "I guess you could find you a man there" and I just said, "ya never know". I hate these games. I will not, however allow him to think that I am just gonna sit around and wait for ever!!!! NOt healthy for either of us..(I don't think).
I really am thinking about the gym thing - could do it on the days that I don't have kids.
oh, and if anyone needs some entertaining threads to read, check out LL's prior threads linked on Pam's current thread. Hysterical. I am so glad her H came back.
Quote: oh, and if anyone needs some entertaining threads to read, check out LL's prior threads linked on Pam's current thread. Hysterical. I am so glad her H came back.
for his sake? for my sake? or for everyone here's sake?
Quote: oh, and if anyone needs some entertaining threads to read, check out LL's prior threads linked on Pam's current thread. Hysterical. I am so glad her H came back.
Quote: JUst wait until 15 yrs goes by and one of you drops the bomb....enjoy this bliss while you can...." I felt so darn cynical.
I was out to dinner with my youngest son (18) and we were watching a family sitting at the next table. S says, "don't you wonder what their life will be like in 10 years?"
I think mostly because you so aptly voice what everyone here is going thru, and it is good to read a success story...that all of the mental gyrations(?) paid off in the long run????
Most of all, I am happy for your family as a whole. Kids deserve that.
I think mostly because you so aptly voice what everyone here is going thru, and it is good to read a success story...that all of the mental gyrations(?) paid off in the long run????
Most of all, I am happy for your family as a whole. Kids deserve that.
that's me, never was one to sugar coat anything!
when I asked "for every one here's sake?" I meant the folks on the bb so cause I do believe I'm a tad less insane with my posts since h did come home.
REally, tho, you have so evolved. I hope to be in your shoes someday soon.
And ya know, even though I don't think my H is involved in a EA or PA, I think I will still be left with those feelings of "will he bolt again someday if things aren't just so-so". I think anytime a spouse walks away, it shatters the LBS's entire sense of security that we may never, ever get back. I know now that I doubt I ever will. So for what it is worth, I think you questioning your sitch is perfectly normal and all one can hope is that it lessens with each passing year???
