Yeah, Mavs looked good last night. I was getting a little worried after the first three or four games. But things look better now.
things with H are status quo I guess. Actually, if I step back and look at it, things are slowly progressing. He has called numerous times over the last few days and we even exchanged emails over the last few days. Now this is big. For the first few months post-bomb, email was the only way H would communicate with me, and all content was usually something to upset me. In fact, when I got an email from H, I could feel my feet slip out from under me. I hated reading those emails. It would send me into a tail spin and absolutely ruin my day. so.....the fact that we have been emailing light-hearted conversations is a plus. I just get so darned impatient, that I am overlooking the positives and progress.
I am a little PMSing this week, so last night I got to feeling sorry for myself. H called to ask when to bring kids by as it was my night. I told him I was in pissy mood, so just whenever....He then called back later when kids not around and tried to find out what was wrong. I told him not sure, just sad and that I would occasionally have sad and down days. I said I feel like all I do is work and come home and have no fun. I said, as I was fighting the traffic out of downtown (horrible on mavs and stars nights -that means every night this time of year) that I wanted to just turn around, park and go to the game. I am so sick of no adult fun. I don't think he knew what to make of this. He said "thats all I do too"...I said "well I don't like it!". Maybe he senses me getting restless...is this a good thing? I actually do feel restless...
Yea, traffic gets crazy on the mixmaster. That's why I try not to go downtown unless it is self defense
You seem to be making slow but steady progress. That is great! Have you tried to do something different? I used to go to the movies by myself when H was away. It felt empowering the first time.
What things do you like to do?
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
I have not been to the movies in months, but I would try Brother Bear... just kidding: I liked The Matrix, but the last installment does not have very good reviews. And I want to see Kill Bill, but do not try that if you do not like violent movies...
Someone else should have ideas...
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
