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Okay, I haven't posted regarding my sitch in quite some time. I thought I was successfully moving forward by alas not so much.

Tomorrow will be our 15th Anniversary.

There will be no anniversary cards to share.

There will be no gift and flowers to pick up and give.

There will be no dinner out together.

There will be no initmacy to look forward to.

There will only be thoughts of sadness about what could have and should have been. Trying to find the bright side in all of this, but lately it has just been hard to find.

(((BeginningAgain)))

Thanks Trixi! Surprisingly, now that the day is actually here it's not as bad as I anticipated. I think just knowing it was coming up and that it would simply be no different than any other day was more depressing than when I woke up this morning and thought - okay it's Thursday and made my list of what I needed to get done work wise today.

I suppose eventually a year will come where I don't even think twice about what March 18th represented.

BA

Well, if it makes you feel any better- -this past July, (our 12 year anniversary) I was writing my H a "goodbye" letter that I read to him in counseling the next day.

H had already said that he wanted to not speak/see each other for 3 months the week before and so we had scheduled one last counseling session where I would get to express all my thoughts and feelings on the matter. And they were not nice thoughts and feelings, let me tell you. I was *especially* angry that I had to write this on our anniversary. I was bawling as I wrote it.

I hope you do something nice for yourself today.

Ouch - that is painful - sorry you had to endure that.

Where I live it is absolutely beautiful today. Temps in the low 70's and lots of sunshine - quite a change from the snowstorms we were having a month ago. I plan on taking a nice long walk after work today. I'd run, but I did a pretty intense one yesterday and I have a half-marathon to do on Saturday morning and so I need to rest the legs. My girls are at their Mom's tonight, so I think I'm going to cook myself a steak on the grill and enjoy a nice glass (or two) of red wine.

Happy brand new day BA!

Sounds like you're doing just fine today and even have some plans for yourself. Also, thanks for stopping by my thread and offering advice.

Mine is coming up. April 27 will be hour 14th anniversary. My parents were married 14 years before they divorced. Wow, that 10-14 year danger zone is just so true isn't it.

I was looking ahead on this -- I'm a planner. April 2 is my 41st birthday. Luckily it's spring break for the girls so I bought tickets to take them to Florida. So I'll be at a wildlife refuge on my birthday and my phone will be off.

For my birthday I contacted a friend in Chicago. She's in a group of people who buy season Cubs tickets. She's going to fight for the April 27th tickets. It shouldn't be that bad. They are playing the Nationals.

So I'm going to be sitting in the stands with my friend -- who is gorgeous, no hope though, she's into dating drummers from the myriad bands in Chicago -- and seriously enjoying myself on our anniversary.

I'm sure I'll have down moments. It will be our last anniversary since I expect the D to be done by end of summer. But I don't feel like mourning it this year.

Smart move having those plans in place. Surrounding yourself with a beautiful woman, whether she's into you or not, can be very uplifting!

I ended up going to the store and buying the nicest steak and bottle of wine I could find and treated myself to a great meal at home. It ended up being a very nice day.

Excellent. Spring is here and this year will be better than last year.

BA, how're you doing?