Yep, I think it is time that you speak to Mr.Mind and I am sure that since you have been getting into the right frame of mind and praying about it that you are as ready as ready can be.
PH is right, you have shown your changes consistently. You have not raised R talk in a very long time. My very very best wishes will be with you. You deserve the best...
You are very close to where I was about 15 months ago. I finally did it, with a letter. As you might guess, the response was not completely positive! Just be prepared, once you make it clear that things have to change, you might end up being the one to change them. It might not be what you hoped for, but in the end, I think it will be what needs to be done, whatever that turns out to be. HUGS!
I used to ask as a newbie....How long to I keep trying by myself?
And people would say, "Until you decide you can't do it anymore"...(I HATED that at the time bc it was so non-specific! )
I cycled a few times getting close and backing off until I couldn't live the way I was living anymore. Sounds like you are reaching the same point. From your descriptors you guys do sound like the cover of a Ralph Lauren catalog. But that doesn't mean much if you are hurting inside, does it?
Keep doing those runs and working things over in your mind. You will know when the time is right and we will be here for you!
I'm truly blessed to have all of you by my side in this. I can't "find my voice" in real life to share w/anyone, so this is especially special to me.
It's either this, an ulcer, or keel over from a heart attack. None of which sound appealing.
It's funny, tonight I was talking to a fellow soccer mom, and she and her H have become nice friends of ours. Her H and my H have bonded. She was confiding in my how he can be "less than a pleasure to be around" some days, and giving me examples of his behavior. Sounded REALLY familiar!!! She kept saying how lucky I was to have such a normal life and darling family. I thought, "Sister, you have to be out of your mind or completely blind!!!" (This is a couple we've spent a good deal of time around, too...)
PS - Oh, my aching legs! Just some weirdness.
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Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
Just finished the 3-mile walk. I'm deleting all of the Dan Savage pocasts. He's just nasty.
Very busy at work. I'm deliberately molding myself into a new position within the company. I love it! It's funny... this has happened before. I get hired for one thing, and I know it's not what I ultimately want to do, so I start doing more of what I like, instead of what I'm supposed to, and now I have what I want!!! So far it has worked. Do not try this at home!
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
