I went out today and bought myself a ring to replace my wedding rings -
Sterling silver -
In a mobius style -
It says "Nothing Is Impossible".
I am blessed beyond measure my friend.
(((Hugs)))
Serenity,
I bought myself a ring on my birthday weekend too. I don't wear it on my left hand though. I got myself a claddagh ring for it's meanings of love, friendship and fidelity--a symbol of this trial in my life right now.
Almost got a mobius bracelet.
M40, H39 M17 T20 D13, S12 H moved out 05/09 D filed 1/10
Yeah. Dog ditched his wedding band when he valued it for nothing. Returning to the fires of Mt Doom was the plan but a trip to the jeweler had to do. Didn't even get a C note for it but didn't care. Repalced it with a Dharma Wheel tattoo upper mid back. It's Dog's world now.
"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand." Thich Nhat Hanh
Hi, friend, I am dragging this reply of yours from another forum (I forget which one.) It is posted with love.
Serenity, I will chime in (as always)
Originally Posted By: Serenity13
(((CC)))
I have bipolar, was diagnosed 20 years ago and have been off and on (more off - but now on) meds since then...Stay on meds. Obey your doctor.
I can't speak for your H however I can tell you I refused treatment because it made me feel weak as a person and yes I was also institutionalized as well..I would hope it would make you feel human:we are all persons; we are all weak: we all have our problems, in one form or another.
To be labeled as a bipolar person is almost like a death sentence...Not in this day and age. Maybe when it was misunderstood and labeled manic-depressive years ago, but not now. It is no more of a "label" than" clinical depression" or "OCD" To be told you may have to take mood altering drugs the rest of your life because you can't function as a "normal" human being is a horrible blow to anyone...Change the term mood-altering to heart-altering, to blood-sugar-altering, to thyroid-altering, to OCD-altering to agoraphobia-altering, to adrenal-altering, to hormonal-altering, etc., etc., etc. and there is no difference.No difference in perception. No difference in people's reactions or perceptions, No stigma! It is a chemical imbalance of unknown cause. Big deal.
Once people know, basically you become the disease and cease to be a person...I disagree. To ignorant people, maybe. Educate them.
Quite candidly and bluntly, my friend, I would see my doctor if I were you. Sure, you're going through the roller coaster like all of us, but sometimes my perceptions of your mood swings seem quite sudden and pronounced.. I am on Thyroid replacement, testosterone replacement, AD's and Neurotransmitter-enhancing amino acids. End/cumulative result? I cope better, respond better,live better.
Dog's Dx isn't as big (recurrent depression). I asked at recent med check and confirmed what I thought; Dr says I should be on Rx's for life. Too many episodes, starting early in life. Too great of a chance of recurrence. At least I tolerate them well and this particular one works. No big deal.
I have plenty of times where I wonder what the big deal was all about. Why am I even taking this stuff? Why the counseling? I don't need this. But I continue because I know that's part of the disorder. It fools you into thinking everything's OK; you let your guard down; it's back again.
I wish I didn't have to deal with this but it's not a choice. It's there. I deal with it. I discuss it here and with a few people on the outside and that's it.
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"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand." Thich Nhat Hanh
0d, Very true too; probably part of every disorder!
Originally Posted By: orangedog
Dog's Dx isn't as big (recurrent depression). I asked at recent med check and confirmed what I thought; Dr says I should be on Rx's for life. Too many episodes, starting early in life. Too great of a chance of recurrence. At least I tolerate them well and this particular one works. No big deal.
I have plenty of times where I wonder what the big deal was all about. Why am I even taking this stuff? Why the counseling? I don't need this. But I continue because I know that's part of the disorder. It fools you into thinking everything's OK; you let your guard down; it's back again.
I wish I didn't have to deal with this but it's not a choice. It's there. I deal with it. I discuss it here and with a few people on the outside and that's it.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
I read your reply to me yesterday and had to think about it for a bit...
My reply to you is in love as well.
I was a smidge put off at first then had a chance to really think about what you said...
There shouldn't be a stigma however there is...Having a mental issue always comes with a stigma and I am basing this on my life and others reactions to me...
When I was first diagnosed, my insurance company cancelled my insurance because of the meds I had to take...I had to go and have a special med alert bracelet made that said I was a recovering drug addict/No narcotics and I was on such and such medication...I was absolutely mortified to put that thing on my wrist...
My family/friends treated me different - It seems once the diagnose was made, once the label was out there, I ceased to be "Serenity" and became the disease...My moods were from that day forward defined by my bipolar...I could never be in a good mood or bad mood without someone asking me if I took my meds that day..I took great offense to that and still do to this day...To no longer being a person and being just a "headcase"
It took me many years to overcome that label...To be defined as a person and not a disease...To allow myself to feel my feelings without feeling guilty.
My response to the thread was letting her know how it feels on the other side of the coin. I fought treatment, I fought the meds, I fought my demons, I fought the pain and the hurt and the emotions all over the place and only with acceptence did I become whole again...
Her H hasn't hit bottom...He hasn't begun to accept what is within him, what will be with him until the day he dies and only when he does will he be able to become himself again.
Happy Valentine's Day
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
