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What gets me is that we both always said at worst we would separate to fix things. Is separation what is going on now since she hasn't refiled and hasn't said anything about it? But there is no working on the M going on either.

Just confused today and feeling a bit frusturated.

Kevin

I am having trouble focusing today. I think I am a bit stressed also about a job.

Kevin

See, this is why having positive exchanges with your W does you no good. You are not able to manage your expectations when one tiny little thing happens that really is no more than normal conversation to most people.

You need to focus right now on employment. That is crucial.

Have you ever considered shaking things up (and I am not suggesting you do this per say, just wondering) and telling her..

W: I have decided I no longer care to live like this. If you would like to work on our marriage there will be talking, there will be counseling, there will be transparency and there will be sex. If you decide that is not for you then I will take the necessary steps to end our marriage.

I am not saying use those words verbatim but this really has gone on for a long time. I wish I was wrong, Kevin, but I truly have a very strong feeling that as soon as she moves and gets stable things will begin to happen.

17 months. I have thought about that at times. But I know that I am just lacking patience and faith when I do think about that. It usually gets put out of my mind pretty quickly.

I know everything seems questionable right now. But I think(am hoping) things are changing for the better.

You are right my number one goal right now is to get another job and I am working on that. I am just having a bit of trouble focusing today. Nothing new right?

Kevin

No worries about the not focusing. I feel like my brain is all over the map today and I just can't choose what to attack first.

But yes, job first.

W removed me from her health insurance. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kevin

Did you just find out?

I got a letter last night from the insurance stating what my benefits have been. Then there was an end date. Tonight while picking up the kids at W's place, she informs me that she has picked up cobra for her and the kids and somehow, cobra is actually cheaper than what she was paying. Go figure, I have no idea how that could be. But ok. It seems as though if it cost her money, I have to be removed. But if I am paying more than I would, then keep me on the other accounts. Freakin games.

Then she tells me she interviewed again today and has another tomorrow and it is just hard work interviewing and that she already has an additional offer for more than she was making before. Then she tells me all her friends have been calling her to comfort her and make sure she is ok since her job was ending. She tells me like I care that she has friends, especially any friends that support her pulling all this crap.

We discussed the girls report cards and the girls did well. The girls and I finally ended up leaving. Her life is going so great. She has no reason to look back at me. Just another step closer to a direction I have not wanted to head towards.

I am tired of these games with her. I am sooo tired of them.

Kevin

So what is it that you can do with your life to make it worth bragging about? GAL like she is. After all this time, you're still acting like a victim.

Not a victim. Just sick of waiting around for her games to end.

Kevin