Well, my H is SPEAKING to me now and not just yelling at me and ignoring me... so I should remember that as a blessing too... but sometimes being a cranky B is about all I can muster.
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
Crank B is a way of life for me at times. I NEVER use to be like this, I was always a pretty 'pleasant' person...but since THE BOMB I've become quite the B....and usually it's not by choice, it's almost like an "alien" takes over MY mind.
Someday I hope to be the old "pleasant, peacefilled" T2 again. (I liked her better). T2
okay okay.....what was I thinking? I WAS THE ULTIMATE B the two years prior to BOMB DAY....how convienent it was of me to forget THAT... Saying I was pleasant was a BIG WHOPPER on my part, because the truth IS, I was 'pleasant' to everyone BUT my H. T2
Quote: but I still can do cranky and whiny pretty good (to me and my safe friends!)
ditto!!
Although I do find myself a much more pleasant person around all my friends, also. I'm treating everyone a little better these days! Including myself..
Quote: Every dang time I read Deb's posts and remember that I already have (my H back home) and she is still so dillegently working to accomplish that goal for herself I think...DAMN T2, how come YOU can't be appreciative of what you DO have instead of constantly bitchin and moanin about what you don't have YET. So today, Deb reminded me to COUNT my blessings and to stop being such a cranky B.
That's how I was too, T2. In fact I look back to the way I treated my H when we first separated and I just shake my head! I am so much calmer and more peacful now....I like it better but unfortunately it won't save my M!
Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.... (thoreau)
Well gang
Day # 2 of NO bitchin, moanin, whinin, sulking etc....a whole 48 hours of being the OLD ME...and watching H be the OLD HIM. Made for a pretty pleasant weekend!!
I think I'll try for 3 in a row.
My son moved back home today so now the family is all together again under one roof. I feel great tonight, things just seem so "normal"...I almost, NO I had forgotten, what 'normal' really felt like...and ya know what? It feels pretty damn good. T2
