Thanks flowmom - i realise that even though i have moved on in the physical outward sense. i have not internally. It has to be subconsciously that i have harboured these dreams of reuniting. i am shocked at myself and feel it is not something i can talk about with people around me.
I can't even imagine letting go right now, but I assume that it must happen in stages. It sounds like you've been doing a great job at acting "as if", and I hope that will help you with doing the emotional work of finding peace internally.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
