You are right but i think theres more of the bit of how much i love her and am sorry and know it will take awhile to trust mom said.She dont believe i would change anytime soon she feels she could never be in a relationship with me but she loves me and want me to get help[someday].And she still says and mom believes her she is not seeing anyone now.So i dont know i messed up and regret this for ever she men the world ro me some times as men we really dont see rhose we hurt until it to late.I know it a to way st.But we are blind to those we love and are emotions take over and we become that which we hate and we lash out .I was one of those men but im learning and will never be that man ever again.Well gym time hope to read some new post later.
