Hp. You women are too complicated for me. Just say what you want and be done with it for goodness sake. I do take her at her word about not wanting to talk about her breast. I'm sure she doesn't know why she doesn't want to talk to me about it. One minute it's the tough girl act I need to learn how to do things on my own. The next it's she can't talk until she figures it out.
I know she's worried about how this one will come out with the divet and all. I don't want to make her mad by asking all the time but I'll find away. She tries to put things out of her mind when she's scared. I said it several times but I think me finding that thing during our last session may have some how fed into the I'm not sexy thing. She did shut down once I found it.
As far as the story is concerned. I sent it to her at work with a warning what it was about. I didn't hear anything from her all day. I didn't know what she thought or anything. She then sent me an email saying that she finally had a chance to read it all during her lunch and thought it was good. She thought I should submit it and offered to help correct the grammar errors and such. She said she printed it off and deleted from her email there. She had to know this story was about her. It had a take off of her name, one of my color fetishes, her job and the like.
I guess I was hoping she would say let's act this story out later. Instead, I got how tired she was. Oh well. At least I put my sexual stuff down on paper so she can see my fantasy stuff that involves her. I will finish part two later if I can.
I will re-read DR. Everytime I do, I find something new. My biggest problem is brooding and being down around her. I wish I could bring my work persona home. I'm all silly and calm there. Last night, I was doing my smoking in the garage with the lights out brooding thing with the door up thing. BRRRRRR, it's getting cold in Indy. But I had my bourbon laced coffee. She came out and actually asked me what was wrong. Just like old days. She hasn't really gave a dogs butt what I was feeling or what was wrong with me. I wasted that chance by brooding. My horoscope said to stop that mess. 'nuff reason for me. It's not getting me anywhere.
I'm going to finish part two and see what she thinks.
Quote: You women are too complicated for me. Just say what you want and be done with it for goodness sake.
Have you seen that episode of the Simpsons where Homer has a card that says "always do the opposite of what Bart says". I expect your W does not really know what she wants. Just be nice to her. It's true she is not being that nice to you, but I think she needs you to be strong for her right now. You don't have to take her crap, but just hang in there like you do.
Hey she liked your story!!! Perhaps now is the time to try it on with her and see what she does.
Have you seen that episode of the Simpsons where Homer has a card that says "always do the opposite of what Bart says".
I expect your W does not really know what she wants. Just be nice to her. It's true she is not being that nice to you, but I think she needs you to be strong for her right now. You don't have to take her crap, but just hang in there like you do.
Hey she liked your story!!! Perhaps now is the time to try it on with her and see what she does.
I've seen that episode. I'll have to put that message on an index card for my shirt pocket. Believe/do the opposite of what W says.
Update
Not much to report. Last night, I hoped she would come home and want to work out that story. Too tired. She emailed me at work asking me to find last second air fares so she can go see her bro. Needless to say, those fares were quite high. We talked about regular stuff and she crashed on me. Oh well, she's tired. Over the past week or so, she's been coming through the door like a gang buster in the morning trying to wake me up I reckon. Lately, I've been sleeping wrapped tight in my blankets with my head in a pillow sandwich. Looking back, I think she was trying to get me up to chat again. This morning, I didn't sleep like that and was rolling over when she came from the bathroom. WTH. She said good morning with a smile on her face. That shocked the heck out of me. She hasn't wished me a good morning since August. A small step I think.
She told me she has proofed my story again but will keep it at work. Hmmmmmmmmm. I wonder if I need to start the event train from the story. W won't be in town for Thanksgiving but I'm not bummed. She seems happy that she's going to see her brother. She connects the best with this guy. I'm happy for her. The time away in the sun may do her well. Although I think she sucks. I'm here in the frigid temps and she's going to the 80's. The kids will be doing their own thing with grand parents. But again, I'm not bummed. That good morning did something for me.
We'll see what happens when she gets in tonight. As she's leaving in the morning, I don't expect anything. But you never know.
Time to get my feast stuff ready for tomorrow. Time to make pies and rubs and all that good stuff. I'm happy when I'm cooking. I think I'll turn my Christams screen saver on early this year too.
Why am I up so early? W and S just left for the highway. Before he got in the car, he came and gave me a big hug. W kept her distance. It's weird. This is the first time in years that one of us were leaving that we didn't hug and kiss good bye. Well, all things considered I guess that's not all that bad.
Wait......
Well, the door came back up. I guess I was hoping W was coming in for that hug and kiss. Nah. She came in for her back thingy. I don't know if that was a second chance for me to take the lead on this or not. Strange enough, I felt neutral about her leaving. Now, I feel sad and am missing her as I hear her leave the sub division. I know she hates it, but I asked her the exact time she's going to hit the open road. I guess it's the pilot in me but it helps me with my estimates of her posistion. I know it's late fall but I can still keep an eye on the weather along her route and dial her up if I see anything heavy.
I asked her to check in every once and awhile. She replied with a low ok but a loud my phone will be on. I think may ring that thing up a lot. One of the things that convinced her I didn't care was "I" didn't check in with her much on her last road trip south.
This was a major thing for her she told me a in August. She said by not keeping her updated on weather and just seeing if she was ok on a more frequent basis, it told her I lost feeling for her. In the past, I would call her on the dime if I severe weather was coming(she's scared of thunder storms). Over the past year, my tracking of the weather was put on the back burner for some reason. Then again, a lot of things I liked to do were put back there. I guess it was the depression. Now that I'm coming back, I'm back to doing things I like. Oh well. I miss the W already but I'm going to have a good time cooking and making a mess of my brother's place today.
That card should read "always be sweet no matter what W says." Don't leave her alone when she's down. That's not sweet. Buy her some flowers and tell her you love her ect. If she is really nasty be sweet any way. It will make her look bad.
Hope you are not eating pumpkin pie. That stuff is disgusting.
I agree with you about the phone calls. Keep in contact and tell her you are missing her. Maybe you could buy her a little gift for when she gets back. Something romantic. Write her a little card something soppy. I think she would go for it.
Just guessing but I think now could be a turning point for you if you play things right.
A couple of comments, never underestimate the power of a hug, next time ask for one, but act happy.
Next, make the house spit shine, and fresh flowers on the table and nice smell in the bedroom. Kill her with kindness. Be prepared for what she can or will say. I failed this test, don't let it happen to you.
Hey Jiji. I like you reminder card ideas better. I will go with that. You and Poepad seem to be on the same page as far as flowers. I think I will get a nice center piece maybe a pointsettia(sp). She gets into that. I called her 4 times yesterday based on where I thought she was. I was able to tell her what the weather was where she was at and when she would come out of the rain. This told her I was actually watching out for her as best I could. I think. As each call ended, I wanted to say ILY. In my heart, I could hear she wanted to hear/say more too. I won't call as much today as I know she's there. She called at one in the morning. I too believe in my heart that we've reached a turning point. I think she's been in limbo for awhile. But now, I believe she's considering another chance. I would think that her being a long way from me brings in feelings similar to those I have when I leave for business. I could feel neutral about her until it's time to start packing and I walk down that ramp to the plane. In fact, the vibe I was getting from her earlier this week is the same vibe I would get when she knew I was about to split. I do plan on playing my cards right. Can't waster another chance. As to the pumpkin pie. Strange enough, I didn't get any. With all the stuff we cooked, we didn't think about pumpkin pie. We did have pumpkin martinis complete with pumpkin schnaps. So I guess that will have to do. The W is hot on P pie. I may make one before she gets home but her's are the best.
Poepad.
I'm way ahead of you. I don't get into the rushing to the mall thing so I'll have plent of time today to do things. I plan on getting this place squared away and in tip top condition. But not just right now. I like walking around in my underwear. I came in last night and just kicked my pants off and watched tv while waiting for W to check in at her destination. I was thinking, this is why I pay a mortgage
I'm going to pick up a couple pointsettias(sp) as mentioned above. I'll make a nice center piece out of them and place them around the house. I'm not sure what scent I will use for the room and the house, but it will be catching to say the least. I also need to have part 2 of my story finished. I have a bit of writer's block. But I know she's waiting for it. By putting my fantasy in writing and making sure she knows it's about her, a friend told me this is showing her I dig he a woman. I THINK I'm on a roll.
Question, what do you mean to be ready for she can or will say? I don't want to flunk any of her tests.
Quote: We did have pumpkin martinis complete with pumpkin schnaps.
Yuk!! The only thing worse is this perfume I saw in an Indian Store. Pumpkin flavor hair perfume!!
I think you should send your W some texts if you have this on your mobile. You could just send her some jokes or something.
Yeah she will love it if you do up the house. However you are getting back to queer eye territory again. Last night's tip: use lots of candles about the place for atmosphere.
Hey put some romantic stuff in your next story and make sure she knows it's about her. Now no more surfing the web till you finish it!! (but let us know how it goes when she gets back)
Quote: We did have pumpkin martinis complete with pumpkin schnaps.
Yuk!! The only thing worse is this perfume I saw in an Indian Store. Pumpkin flavor hair perfume!!
I think you should send your W some texts if you have this on your mobile. You could just send her some jokes or something.
Yeah she will love it if you do up the house. However you are getting back to queer eye territory again. Last night's tip: use lots of candles about the place for atmosphere.
Hey put some romantic stuff in your next story and make sure she knows it's about her. Now no more surfing the web till you finish it!! (but let us know how it goes when she gets back)
Not a bad idea to text her and see what happens. Maybe I'll give that a shot. I'm working on the story as I type. I'm trying to think of a scent that women like. In the story, our hero and his woman retire upstairs to the bedroom which is back lit with candles. I want the room to be scented but I don't have clue. Any Ideas?
Now that my sites are updated and my holiday offer emails are ready to go (No I'm not a dreaded spammer. I hit folks on my opt in lists), I won't be trolling the net that much until the story is done.If this dog and cat would leave me alone, I would be just fine.
As far as the pumpkin martinis. They weren't all that bad. In fact, they were tasty. BTW, here's the recipe for those interested.
The Pumpkin Martini
3 ounces Bols Pumpkin Smash liqueur 1 ounce Captain Morgan Original Spiced Rum 1 dash half-and-half
Ground cinnamon, for garnish
Shake the ingredients over ice, and strain into a cocktail glass rimmed with sugar and cinnamon. Sprinkle a little more cinnamon on top.
Try it love, you'll like it. The W said she wanted to try one or two when she gets home. Maybe she'll drink a few too many and try to use that as an excuse......
Quote: I'm trying to think of a scent that women like. In the story, our hero and his woman retire upstairs to the bedroom which is back lit with candles. I want the room to be scented but I don't have clue. Any Ideas?
