It wasn't okay. I didn't date. I thought I wanted to but actual separation changed my mind quickly.
Hypocritical, I'll admit.
I actually confessed that whole MLC wanting to date other women and not being satisfied. She knew but never confronted me.
I'm not pretending I was in any way justified in wanting out nor am I to be let off the hook now that I've changed my mind. I don't even think I really wanted to leave her or to be single. I think I was dissatisfied with the M but was too stupid and immature to sit down and figure out what MY problem was and how to solve it. If I could go back in time I'd shove DR in my own face and force my past self to read it.
But there's only now and the future and I'll concentrate on that.
~Mark
Me: 38 W: 34 Together: 9yrs 1st M: may '03 1st D: april '08 1st bomb: june '08 remarried: oct '08 2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)
